Since everyone else is doing it....

I think this is a little funny, I did have a few people (who I thought were certifiably crazy) say that I looked like a few of these, I've gotten the "Jennifer Love Hewitt" a few times. I think it's odd, and I think I look nothing like her. But whatever.
You see I've never understood why we compare ourselves to others. Not even parents really, you may look similar to your mother or father, but you are YOU. Completely individual. So why try to compare?
I remember when my first child was young and her fathers mother kept trying to find similarities in everyone related to Alex and Alex. "Who's ears do you think she has?" I remember her actually asking me this, I thought it was strange and answered her "I think she has Alex's ears". Is it really that wierd of me to think that my child might have her OWN features?
Sometimes I see true cases in photographs where there is an absolutely undeniable similarity, or strange clone-ness about the two being compared. Like Amy and McKenna, there is no doubt that child will forever look exactly like her mother. The childhood photo's can only be told apart by the difference in style of clothes, photography and lighting.
Then there is this curse. I'm 30, yeah, I'm still having a hard time dealing with that. So, I'm 30, aging, and seeing this likeness to my mothers features which I can't stand. I'm against plastic surgery for many many reasons. But as each day passes and I see more and more of the woman who birthed me but cannot love me in the mirror, I concider it a little more. I can't figure out what exactly I'd want changed. I don't have any real problem with my face, except that it's aging and looking like someone I don't want to look like.

Anyhow, here's my silly celebrity comparison, and maybe I'll come up with one for Adrian too, just because I'd like to see.. hehe. Ok it is kinda fun.

Tuesday Tuesday

What's so great about Tuesday? Well my Mama's group meets on Tuesdays, that's special. They are great women! We are pretty much all very outspoken and well just blunt, meaning honest. I love that. Sometimes they drive me batty, but I know that these women have huge hearts, and will be there for me if I need them, as I would for them. That is so comforting.

What else is up today, oh the job thing for Adrian. Well the owner and a couple of the other dudes will be getting together tomorrow morning for a meeting on basically what to offer him. They know they want him, they just have to figure out what to offer. It sounds awesome though. Well it sounds like hell a little bit too. They would have him incredibly busy most every week and he would really not be home except on the weekends. He would be expected to travel for 1 week out of every month and he would be pretty much traveling the rest of the time too. There's work to be done all over the state and he would be the only mechanic in Idaho to cover it all. So that would mean that our time together would be limited. But it also means that I could probably stay at home more, and actually feel like a mom/homemaker. Which would be really nice.

I decided to close the shop early this week and only be open from 8-12 since the college is on fall break.

Oops, it's getting that time, I gotta go get milk and head to the shop!
TTFN!

Lazy Weekend

We had a very lazy weekend. We almost decided to go up to McCall for the weekend but decided that instead, we would move the loveseat to sit right in front of the TV and hold it down all weekend. I got probably 2 loads of laundry done and the kitchen is thrashed from our wonderful dinner last night, but it was worth it and it really isn't that bad. ;)

Weekends are usually taken up by searching for something. A place to fish, a place to camp, a new place for our drifter souls to call home. We are allways gone searching or playing on the weekends. It was nice to sit and watch football and the race all day yesterday. So, so nice.

Today Adrian is out of town, flew out of town for an interview. It sounds like he will have a wonderful new job and it's possible that I'll be able to be at home more. We aren't sure what is going to happen yet but I'm sure by the next weekend we will. We are so far behind on every bill that we have it's just getting overwhelming and we will probably be moving soon.

I have mixed feelings about moving. My girls are settled, we have 1 great family next door, the girls have numerous friends on the same block, I love that we are at the end of a cul-de-sac, I love my kitchen, I love my bathtub, I love my closet but my house is too big and too too too hard to keep clean. We are having a hard time with this.

Next weekend will e full I'm sure, we'll either be looking for a new home, or maybe we'll be camping. We may go up to McCall or something like that... It's a beautiful drive and so much fun.

Well the college is on Fall break this week and so that means we will be dead-slow. Big surprise. We have been dead-slow for the past 2 weeks. It's getting very frustrating. But this week I will take advantage of the fact that we will be dead anyway and I'm closing at noon every day.
Which means I must go get ready to close - I feel like I just opened! lol

Have a great week everyone! :)

DIERKS!!!!

Yep - I'm in LOVE with the man. Not in a girly "oh I want to have his babies" sort of way, though I certainly woulndn't turn him down. It's in a "THAT man can sing!" way. "THAT man can ENTERTAIN" way. "THAT man can WRITE" way. You see, he's not just any old country singer. He's amazing, he sings about real life things, about a lot of things that I would sing about. He's a traveler, he writes and sings about traveling, about those "Long Trip Alone"'s that we all need to take once in a while. Well maybe it's just me that needs to take those. But I doubt it, those of you that don't take a long trip alone once in a while - you probably need to, but don't even realize it.

The last two years have been a huge change for me. I've learned so much about who I am, what I love - even if it doesn't make sense to every one. I can say "I LOVE that!" and not worry about the sideways look I may get in response.
I've tried to learn to live like I'm dying, cuz I am, so are you - are you gonna have fun on the way? I AM! I'm doing everything I can to make sure that I don't take regrets with me but I take memories instead.

Dierks sings "Every Mile a Memory" and I can't help but tune right in on that.
I'm listening to the new album right now and wow... I'm gonna have to look up the lyrics and post them - cuz I can't tell you how much I relate to this! Here we go - it's called "Can't Live it Down" - he's talking about life, exactly what I was talking about - this might give you some insight into lil' ol' me - if you're interested. :D

"Can't Live It Down"

I've been called a rambler
'Cause I keep my eyes on that horizon line
And I've been called a gambler
'Cause I always wanna let my winnings ride
I've been broke more times than I can count
I've been stuck for days in a lonely town
When my luck ran south

[Chorus:]
Hey I might be makin' me a reputation
Of goin' my own way and
I can't live it down
Got the throttle wide open gonna live it up knowin'
In this life you only
Get one go around
And I can't live it down

There's times I've wasted money
'Cause I know that I can always make more cash
But wasted time is something man
When it's gone you can't get it back
So I'll go on burnin' up both ends
'Cause I don't want a whole lot of might've-beens
Now that would be a sin

[Repeat Chorus]

Gonna live for place I ain't been
Make a lot of good remember-whens
Right up to the end

[Repeat Chorus]
I can't live it down
I can't live it down

Wow - THIS IS SOOOOOO ME. I want to quote some of the lines, especially about burning cash - but I can't - it's the whole damned song that is JUST.SO.ME.

Children

Why do they do this stuff to us? lol

I hate anything repetetive - repeating myself, or others repeating the same thing over and over to me.

They know this. They know the rules. They know what happens if they don't follow the rules

************AND THEY STILL DON'T FOLLOW THE RULES!*****************

I'm really frustrated with this. My girls went through 4 bottles of shampoo in 2 months, and that's with the older ones going to their dads for 2 weeks out of every month. THAT is rediculous!!

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I'm not going to post anymore wah wah wah stuff now.
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Trip!

Ok, we finally got the road trip thing out of our systems! lol
We went to Roseburg this weekend. The plan was to go crabbing at the coast with IL's and out on the FIL's new boat. Well - it didn't work out that way at all!
Here's what happened -
Friday - I came to work to find that I had flooded and made a huge mess, my fault and it's a stupid mistake I will hopefully not but probably will make again! So, I spend a few hours getting things together and cleaning that mess up. We leave (thanks to my wonderful friend and daycare as-needed provider, Christy, we got to go without kids - YAY) at around noon. We get all the way to Ontario (30 min. away) and the dog, Roxy, decides that it's a great time to go into heat! So after stopping at the nearest store and buying the only thing that we could find that would work - we are back on the road. Roxy is wearing her new HULK T-shirt and boys briefs (worn backwards for the tail to come out of the hole. hehe).

We take our time a little bit and stop a few times for a little fun on the river. hehe
We end up getting into town pretty late, but when we rolled through a friends house at 12am we were lucky enough that they wanted to take Simon (the incredibly dumb dog we've had for a few months - we had full intentions of getting him a new home some time on the trip!) off of our hands and all was well. I'm SO excited that I don't have to think about what is going to be found destroyed when I get home from a very long day at work!!! YaY Simon found a home! :)
So we get into town pretty late and stop by the bar to say hello to a few friends. We had a "that's why we don't live here anymore" moment and then headed to the IL's house to sleep. It was really nice to not have to worry about the kids. The dog though - man it was a pain! The next time we go on any outing by ourselves, we aren't taking any dog! It's so nice to feel free to decide on a whim that we want to change our plans and do something that's not easy to do with kids in tow.

Saturday we had a pretty good day - though we didn't go crabbing! We went to breakfast where Adrian played a game of Keno and bet on our September birthdays - and WON! He won $72! That helped a lot!

Then we went around visiting different people we've missed and some we realized that maybe we didn't miss as much as we thought. lol (j.k.!)

When we still thought we were going to go out on the boat we were getting it ready to get hooked up on the truck and I was digging around in the back of the truck. I had climbed up into it and when I backed myself down I hit on some medal piece of the tounge of the trailer - in the middle of my thigh. OWWWW!!!! It tore my pants, which really pissed me off because they are one of the few that actually fit COMFORTABLY! So I have this huge black bruise on my thigh that looks horrible and there is a nice big square of flesh in the middle of it from where it scraped all the skin off. Yuck.

So, my favorite part of the trip - Saturday afternoon. It was beautiful outside, perfect temp for me, mid 70's. I insisted that we go to the park and lay on a blanket on the grass in the sun - no phones, no card games - NO distractions. It was awesome. We stayed for a little over an hour and man I soaked up every minute of it. I so wish we could do that more. It's something that makes us just pay attention to each other and we just enjoy each other and the love is just so strong. It doesn't happen like that when we take the dogs or the kids, there's just always something distracting us.

Sunday proved to be a very very long day. We finally got home sometime around 12am, and found that I had forgotten to pay the gas bill and it was shut off while I was gone, which meant that we had no hot water to shower with. EEK. So we did it the old fashioned way and heated water in pots on the stove to put in the bath. It was a pain, but I didn't mind too much. It was more a pain because I was so darned tired!

So we ended up sleeping through the alarm and we were both late to work. I can't wait to go to bed at 8pm tonight. It will feel incredibly good! :)

So that's my weekly update. Happy Monday everyone. :)

Itchy Itchy

I'm so itchy for a road trip. I thought I would get my fix this weekend as Adrian has been planning with his parents to go to the coast and go crabbing. We were all going to camp out and I was hopeful to get an extra day off but unfortunately, I don't even get the normal weekend off that I usually do. Hopefully it will still be a good thing, but I was really looking forward to the trip.
This Saturday is the Albertson College of Idaho Tast of the Harvest festival thingy, in which I will be a vendor. So, I will be preparing for that this week, trying to find someone to help me with it and finding someone to watch my kiddo's during the times I'm there and setting up/tearing down. It'll be a long day I'm sure!

This week is going to be hard, I can tell already. I was sick and sleeping for most of the weekend, which means that most of the housework did not get done. We still did get a good amount done, caught up a bit on laundry and such. But with the TOH this weekend we still have a lot to do, I've got to figure some things out on the trailer, practice driving with it and parking it some more since I will have no one to help me with it this weekend! I'm sure it'll be fine, I'm not taking it very far at all, not even on the highway.

I'm feeling like I am getting a head cold - Joy.
My head feels cloudy and stuffed up, and my eyes kinda hurt. I wish I didn't just come on here and complain but I try to write about stuff I'm thinking about and look what I'm thinking about - crap! lol

Well I just finished the updates on my website, I missed doing it yesterday like I usually do.

I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to get through this winter with the shop, I just am not sure that it's going to make it, especially since I'm doing it mostly on my own. I'm hoping that I can hire someone but I'm not sure that I can really afford it, but for my sanity - how can I not afford it?

I need a nap. Do you think my customers would freak out if they came in and I was asleep on the sofa in front of the fire - with drool making a waterfall down the side of the pillow? lol

Alright, I'm signing off for now. :)
Hope you all are having a good day!