I met Dierks

And I'm still high from it all.



This could be a long blog folks... take your chances reading this one! lol

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Dierks Bentley has had some hold on me since I saw him in Reno a few days before finding out that my father had passed. It was truley the last care-free and happy time I had. Then after a while I found some sort of release in his music. The lyrics he writes and the voice on that man astound me. Shortly after my fathers death I found the song titled "Gonna Get There Someday". If you find and read the lyrics you will understand why that hit me, well if you know me at all anyway. :)
I have a bunch of little things that connect him and my dad in my head, it may seem really silly to some.. but I'm not worried about that at all. I know how I feel. And I know how Dierks' music makes me feel. I believe it has given something to me that no one can understand - maybe someone, but it's so hard for me to describe that I'm just not sure you could.
I went to his concert last night and amazingly I had won a Meet & Greet pass with him. I met a few of the other fanclub members and Meet & Greet winners as we all stood in front of the center of the stage (I was basically second row, which meant I was right there in front! YAH BABY!). We touched hands, held fingers and had everyone singing just a inches away from us at many points during the concert. I reached out and touched a few members of the Randy Rogers Band, Miranda Lambert and the wonderful Dierks Bentley! We even had the whole Dierks band move onto the center stage right in front of us and sing a song for us. That was incredible, we had to bend our necks backwards to see them!








I (and 15 other of his fan club members) waited after the show to go back and meet him. We all stood in a single file line and about the time we were getting situated in line we realized that he was right there at the front of the line. It was real. He met each one of us, introduced himself (like he needed to) gave us a good hug, signed whatever we had there for him to sign (and then some) and then we all just stood around and talked. Some of us asked him actual questions and made conversations while others were caught up in the novelty of it all and had him talking to people on cell phones and signing more things... It was a wonderful experience.
In the end of it as everyone was walking out and I had already gotten my good-bye hug, I told him I had another question. I started to ask him about a certain song, the "Gonna Get There Someday" song, but words escaped me and I couldn't form the sentence "Where did your inspiration come from for 'Gonna Get There Someday'?". I said something like "dammit now I can't even remember the name of the song" - he replied to that by asking "Gonna Get There Someday?" me-"YES, THAT'S it! How did you know?" him-"A lot of people ask me about that song". We talked for a few minutes and I told him how much his music has helped me to heal, and how much that song meant to me. He looked at me with those gorgeous eyes and said something like "I'm really glad you told me that, that's so nice to hear. I'm so glad you told me and that the music has helped you, I'm so sorry for your loss... it's terrible." This is almost word for word and the thing that struck me hard was his sincerity, he was so genuine. He hugged me over and over as I told him the story and I probably woulnd't have told him so much if he hadn't seemed like he wanted to hear it. I said goodbye and thanked him and told him how much I appreciate him and the time he took for me... I was the last one to leave and we had stood there talking alone for a couple of minutes. I was all find and good until walking out and looking Adrian in the eyes. He knew what it meant for me to get that chance to talk to Dierks. I couldn't help but let a few tears fall. It was just amazing that he was so sincere and so genuine... I really hadn't inteneded to talk about much except getting him the letter that Patty had sent for him and letting him know that his fanclub sucks ass. In the end I didn't even mention the fanclub. Dangit! Oh well- that night was so awesome that I really don't care! :)
I really wish that I had had a few more minutes. There are things that I forgot to mention to Dierks but maybe another time....
For now I'm just happy to have gotten to see the concert, and that I got to meet Dierks, I'm so incredibly gracious for that chance.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

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Today is wierd

I'm tired today. I wanted to get the house picked up, and it probably would have only taken half of the day, but I'm just drained. This weekend was good and bad, yesterday I spent most of the day crying and upset. I suppose this could be reason enough for feeling drained.

We went out Saturday night with a friend and a few of their friends. It really was so much fun. There was of course the end of the night tiff that results in having 5 drunk people in close proximity all night. One person remembers something the other doesn't remember at all and it's downhill from there. No biggy though, it was still one of the best nights I've had lately.

My cat is really not happy that I'm tired. She normally has her litter box cleaned on Monday's and today it was extra yucky! She let me know by running and jumping onto the pile of clean laundry on the couch and peeing, about 12 inches from my reach. She even saw me watching her. So I went promptly and changed it.

The dog did something similar this morning and I can't come up with a good reason for why she would do this. She peed on a pillow on the floor in the play room this morning and she peed a LOT. I don't know what her problem was.

So Turkey day is this week and I am so not ready for it to be this close to Christmas! I haven't done any Christmas shopping at all. UGH
I'm trying to figure out what I can make for the kids that they would find acceptable for Christmas presents since I'm totally broke! lol

Well tomorrow I am meeting with someone about parking the coffee trailer on their property! YIPPEEE! I am excited, I really really hope this works out. It will solve a lot of our immediate problems. :)

I probably won't be able to post until next week so everyone .... Have a happy THANKSGIVING!!!!

Cat & Mouse

There is a real live game of cat & mouse going on in my house. Nope, not a dr.seuss story book either. We have had a mouse living in our house/kitchen for a while and now there is the chase and catch game that cats play going on in my living room, for the past hour. I wish they didn't torture the poor things, just get it over with already! It makes me feel badly and sad for the mouse. Then I think about all of the food that I could potentially have to throw out. I think about my dear friend that had mice in her house and couldn't get rid of them in any humane way. She did everything you can do humanely. Still had mice. It was such a headache... and so I'm just hoping that this is the only one, though my brain is trying to tell me I'm dumb for even thinking that. lol

Anyhow - it's nice not working. For now. I know myself and I get bored really fast when I don't work. I need a good inbetween, working part time and staying home part time. I could have the best of both worlds and that would be amazing. Right now I'm looking at a location for the trailer and trying really hard to not be too pushy. I need this to work out. I need something to work out! I'm hoping that it does, and I'll let you all know if and when that happens.

Otherwise I'll be applying for a part time job. Hopefully I won't have to, but maybe it would be a good thing too. I'm positive that it would be nice to not have everything fall on MY head for once. Handing over the ultimate responsibility at the end of the day would be so refreshing.

Well I think that's about it for today. I'm looking forward to spending Turkey day with my in-laws and my new sis! :)

Maybe I'll add some pics one day. lol
I've been missing shooting the camera like I did when I was in Florida and not working, I was always shooting and looking for new angles/subjects/lighting and all of that good stuff. I miss it, it was a creative outlet for me and I need to get started with it again! :)

Well I'm off to clean/organize and possibly work out.

Hooray for Monday!

I know, most people don't say hooray for Monday, right?
WELL I DO!
Why?
Because I had 4 EXTRA girls in my house all weekend. That meant 8 all together. It was insane. We did have fun, and we did actually get things accomplished. I moved my 2 oldest girls into a bedroom together and then moved the 2 youngest into a different room and into bunkbeds which means they have a bigger play space. That gave me an extra room, and with all of the stuff from the shop that has thrown up in my house and filled it to the brim, I needed it. So I moved in to my new office! Adrian and I have a living room/office. We now have a cozy spot away from everyone where we can sit and read together, listen to music, watch movies or use the computer and not be interrupted as much as in the regular living room. :)
We are watiting to hear (today!) from the new job that Adrian had applied and interviewed for weeks ago. We'll see how that goes and I'll post as soon as I can about that. We are really very excited to hear about this though!
Thanksgiving is fast approaching, which I'm completely fine with, but then that means that Christmas is also fast approaching and I'm NOT ok with that! I can't believe that it is so close! YUCK! I have not done any shopping, I mean NONE! lol
Well it's time to get back to working on everything I need to in order to actually get "working" again. hehe - Right now I'm going to enjoy the quiet a Monday brings, all but 1 child are back in school today and I'm going to ENJOY the quiet time!
Happy Happy Monday!!!

We had a night out together!

And we had a GREAT time together! Can ya tell?

Closed

I closed the shop. for good. gone forever. done.

Yep, I did, and really - I am glad.
I feel like shit about it because of my customers. The few great customers that we had are amazing and I just hate walking away from them. The way that things happened I had no choice but to give no notice to my customers and I'm just so frustrated by this. Just walking away, it sounds so easy but truley it is SO hard. It honestly makes me feel like a loser! Other than what my customers thought of me I really have not felt like a loser in this.... more like a winner in a losing position. It is a losing deal with the darn location and lack of many business-boosting things that it really needs! I'm rambling and may not make sense - but you know, it's been a wee bit of a stressful week.

I'm in the process of trying to find places for all of things in my house now. It's turned upside down and loaded with stuff. Even the garage is a cluttered mess! We have no room for anything and my kitchen is just disgusting. There's not that much that is truley dirty in there but it is just cluttered with so much stuff. It's kind of fun to have all of this stuff but geeeez it's going to take me forever to get the house all together!

Well I have to find time to get a LOT of crap done today so I need to get off of here.

Happy Saturday!