You don't blog as much anymore.
Really? You mean people actually look at my blog? Someone noticed that I haven't been writing much at all? lol
Ok, I hear you. I'll try. ok?
So what do you write about when you have about 89 things on your mind?
Here's what I think about all day every day - keep in mind I have VERY VERY little social/adult interaction. Remembering that is crucial in getting through the rest of this post.
Homeschooling -
I wonder if I'm really cut out for it all. I wonder if I'm really crazy. I wonder if people wonder if I'm really cut out for it all. Then I start thinking of allllll of the reasons why I'm doing this and I remember that this is really what I've always wanted to do. I tell myself that this is the first year and that I should just take it easy, make sure I'm working the kids but not overworking them either... I'd hate for ANY of us to get burned out on this anytime soon.
I'm constantly asking myself questions like, am I documenting enough, am I doing enough projects... I need to get involved with more groups, I need the kids to have friends & connections - but I don't have a car and I haven't figured out the busses... and that sends me off onto the next most thought about subject -
Should I buy a car?
When I think about all of the polution we are not contributing too, all of the money we are not spending on so many different things that involve owning a car, about the fact that we are next door to the library and that there is a pool out my front door - it makes me feel proud that we haven't caved and bought a car. It makes me feel good about those things.
But I feel bad when I'm sitting home and NEED to get to the grocery store but I can't walk that far due to the pain from my fibroids. This is what happened Monday. Then there is the fact that I finally found a Homeschool group that I joined and I want to get involved, really involved, but it means a lot more planning than just planning on going and getting up that day and jumping in the car - I have to look at the bus route and figure out if I can get to that place on time and how much will the three of us have to walk and can we manage it and will I be embarrassed when I get there and is it all worth it or am I doing the right thing by not falling back into the American life that I don't want to fall victim to.
What do I mean by the American life - I mean people that don't bother to be concerned about anything but convenience. Period. They don't think for themselves. If Mc.D's says that big ass salad is good for you, and look it's right here and easy next to the chicken nuggets that you are getting your children (adding the chocolate milk and apple slices designed to make you feel better about buying this completey mindless and un-nutricious meal for your child) so you might as well just go ahead and get it. So you end up buying it and then later you may or may not realize that you could've eaten a big mac meal for the same amount of calories, fat and sodium. Yum. Don't you feel good about that salad?
See - this is why I don't write about this stuff, but it swims around in my head constantly.
I'm going to put this section to an end because I simply could just go forever, but you get what I'm saying right? I don't want to buy a car simply because it's easier and it's the "normal" thing to do.
So anyway, what else fills my mind... I hate to admit this but here it is....
I want another baby... yes, you read that right. I want to birth a baby at home, I feel like somehow I was robbed of an experience that every mother deserves.
But alas... I'm fixed, tubes tied, done. Soon the dr.'s will want to take my uterus because of the fibroids and I can say bye-bye to any kind of hope that I will once again birth and nurse a baby.
What else do I think about?
NOT falling victim to the consumerism that is Christmas. Yes, I LOVE Christmas, I love the magic of it and the season.... love it all. What I don't love? The over-spending, the over-eating (ok, I really love that part, but I hate what it does to my body), the mindless shopping,the over-packaging shit that comes with every toy, the selfishness that is invoked by seeing all of these things advertised as the years hottest presents. I hate that I constantly want to buy buy buy. I want real presents that don't hurt anyone or anything... it'd be nice if I could buy all handmade and eco-friendly AND fair trade gifts. I don't want to feel pressured into buying my little girls those evil fucking Bratz dolls that dress scantly clad and wear make-up that makes them look like they were just working the corner downtown - our kids look up to these things, they want to BE LIKE THEM.
See - do you see why I'm so fucked up? These are just a few things that go through my head every single fucking day. Yeah, and I love the F word and I feel bad about it but then I don't feel bad about it because I really don't believe that I'm going to spend eternity in hell for using the word fuck.
So there it is folks... a freaking book about what I think about every day... and I didn't even get to the part about eating healthy vs. losing weight. Yes, in my day to day those two things go head to head... I'll tell you why in some later rant, if I don't get shut down after this one. ;)
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Living without a car
It's almost unacceptable in our society really. WHAT? You don't have a CAR? Think about that, how often do you hear of a suburban family that doesn't have a car? (exculding those large cities where pretty much no one has a car) It's been a few weeks now that I have been car-less and I find myself struggling with the idea of getting a car daily.
Thing is, we don't have a car payment right now, we don't have to carry insurance, and we don't pay for gas. At least once a week my friend Brenda comes and takes me out of the house. And she watches the kids on the weekends sometimes so that Adrian and I can get out. She'll let me borrow her car if I need it, or even just want it.
So really, NOT having a car is saving us upwards of $7-800 a MONTH. That is a LOT of freakin' money!
On top of the money you save directly and obviously from not owning a car, comes the in-direct and certainly not obvious savings that come forth. When you own a car, you think nothing of running out to the store when you are out of milk, right? But what happens then is that you end up spending $50 at the grocery store on all of the things that you didn't really need, weren't really sure if you needed, and of course the last minute impulse buys. Then you have the random stops, like yard sales and stores that you suddenly think "I need something from there!". The gas you use and the money you spend in those unexpected stops adds up quick! I can't believe how long I've had the same amount of money in my account.
Weekend before last I rented a car for the weekend, Fri. - Tues. - it ended up costing us around $200. It was really nice to have it, and be able to get things done that I'd like to do. I may rent a car this weekend as well. Though probably not for as many days, just Fri.-Mon. would be perfect.
There is a bus stop very close to my home, but I haven't yet ventured that far. If I knew this area better, I'd be on that bus every day, going and doing things to keep me busy. But again, that's spending more money that I really don't need to spend.
This all reminds me of living with my Dad back in Eureka, we hardly ever had a car. It wasn't devastating though. I remember taking the bus everywhere I needed to go, Dad and I frequented the bus lines and knew the drivers by name and such. We had no problem with it. When we didn't use the bus, we walked. We walked a lot in those days and guess what? I was a lot less fat as well! Hmm, wonder why?
So, these are the kinds of things that go through my head all of the time right now, since for the most part I'm not leaving my home much. I'm a little obsessive about it I think. Being stuck at home is driving me a little bonkers and I am thinking about calling a cab to go to the shopping center, walk around and buy some things that I need from the grocery store before getting a cab back home.
In closing, I'd like to say that I'm proud of myself, for going this long without any means of transportation. Also, more importantly, I'm not contributing to nearly as much pollution!!! :-D
Thing is, we don't have a car payment right now, we don't have to carry insurance, and we don't pay for gas. At least once a week my friend Brenda comes and takes me out of the house. And she watches the kids on the weekends sometimes so that Adrian and I can get out. She'll let me borrow her car if I need it, or even just want it.
So really, NOT having a car is saving us upwards of $7-800 a MONTH. That is a LOT of freakin' money!
On top of the money you save directly and obviously from not owning a car, comes the in-direct and certainly not obvious savings that come forth. When you own a car, you think nothing of running out to the store when you are out of milk, right? But what happens then is that you end up spending $50 at the grocery store on all of the things that you didn't really need, weren't really sure if you needed, and of course the last minute impulse buys. Then you have the random stops, like yard sales and stores that you suddenly think "I need something from there!". The gas you use and the money you spend in those unexpected stops adds up quick! I can't believe how long I've had the same amount of money in my account.
Weekend before last I rented a car for the weekend, Fri. - Tues. - it ended up costing us around $200. It was really nice to have it, and be able to get things done that I'd like to do. I may rent a car this weekend as well. Though probably not for as many days, just Fri.-Mon. would be perfect.
There is a bus stop very close to my home, but I haven't yet ventured that far. If I knew this area better, I'd be on that bus every day, going and doing things to keep me busy. But again, that's spending more money that I really don't need to spend.
This all reminds me of living with my Dad back in Eureka, we hardly ever had a car. It wasn't devastating though. I remember taking the bus everywhere I needed to go, Dad and I frequented the bus lines and knew the drivers by name and such. We had no problem with it. When we didn't use the bus, we walked. We walked a lot in those days and guess what? I was a lot less fat as well! Hmm, wonder why?
So, these are the kinds of things that go through my head all of the time right now, since for the most part I'm not leaving my home much. I'm a little obsessive about it I think. Being stuck at home is driving me a little bonkers and I am thinking about calling a cab to go to the shopping center, walk around and buy some things that I need from the grocery store before getting a cab back home.
In closing, I'd like to say that I'm proud of myself, for going this long without any means of transportation. Also, more importantly, I'm not contributing to nearly as much pollution!!! :-D
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Been a while, huh?
Yes it has. Most of you that would still be interested in checking my blog will know that we've moved to Florida. Which is all sorts of fun. Or so one might think. I, personally, would rather be back home. Someone asked, where's home? And I couldn't think of anything to say as far as an actual place, but it is most definately where my kids are, and where my church is.
I'm all sorts of homesick, and really tired of living on bare minimums. I hate not having my own things, we left everything in Boise. It's frustrating as hell to look around my house, and see nothing of my own, my own style, my own things with my own feel. Beyond that, there is hardly any kind of furniture in here, I have a futon chair from my new friend that I made here. She is wonderful and giving and has donated a few pieces of furniture after only knowing her a day. She is probably the only thing keeping me from going completely insane. The A's are with their dad and I'm missing them something terrible. I've never been away from them like this. It's very rough right now, but we're getting there.
I'm trying to make plans to go back to Idaho and sell some of my things that are in my storage unit there. It's obvious it's just going to cost too much to move them and won't be worth the wear I'd put on them from moving it all across country twice. As I don't intend to be in this place for longer than my maximum sentence of two years.
I'm also wanting to make plans to go on my DAD trip that I've talked about before. It needs to be done, it's been nearly two years and I'm still really having a hard time and I really think that it would help me in my mourning, to move on some... Hopefully that will be in the works within the next year.
My car was repossessed last week as well. Isn't that just fun. Our credit sucks so bad at this point that I'm not even concerned about getting it back now, it'd be nice to not have a car payment and be able to enjoy the money that my husband works so hard for. Of course I'll have to figure out something for a car, but we are going to suffer through it until we have saved enough for a cheap car that will get us by for now until we rebuild our credit some more. Pray that I can find something reasonable that will fit my entire brady bunch family. :P
What else is new, hmmm? I got two kitties, they are siamese sisters and they are awesome, beautiful and very loving kitties. They sleep on my bed all day, and they love to be lap kitties.
And I may not be doing real good right now, but I'm alive, I'm great - and getting better every day.
I'm all sorts of homesick, and really tired of living on bare minimums. I hate not having my own things, we left everything in Boise. It's frustrating as hell to look around my house, and see nothing of my own, my own style, my own things with my own feel. Beyond that, there is hardly any kind of furniture in here, I have a futon chair from my new friend that I made here. She is wonderful and giving and has donated a few pieces of furniture after only knowing her a day. She is probably the only thing keeping me from going completely insane. The A's are with their dad and I'm missing them something terrible. I've never been away from them like this. It's very rough right now, but we're getting there.
I'm trying to make plans to go back to Idaho and sell some of my things that are in my storage unit there. It's obvious it's just going to cost too much to move them and won't be worth the wear I'd put on them from moving it all across country twice. As I don't intend to be in this place for longer than my maximum sentence of two years.
I'm also wanting to make plans to go on my DAD trip that I've talked about before. It needs to be done, it's been nearly two years and I'm still really having a hard time and I really think that it would help me in my mourning, to move on some... Hopefully that will be in the works within the next year.
My car was repossessed last week as well. Isn't that just fun. Our credit sucks so bad at this point that I'm not even concerned about getting it back now, it'd be nice to not have a car payment and be able to enjoy the money that my husband works so hard for. Of course I'll have to figure out something for a car, but we are going to suffer through it until we have saved enough for a cheap car that will get us by for now until we rebuild our credit some more. Pray that I can find something reasonable that will fit my entire brady bunch family. :P
What else is new, hmmm? I got two kitties, they are siamese sisters and they are awesome, beautiful and very loving kitties. They sleep on my bed all day, and they love to be lap kitties.
And I may not be doing real good right now, but I'm alive, I'm great - and getting better every day.
Friday, September 28, 2007
BEN!!!!!
You left no contact info!
Please email me at leighcandle02@msn.com ASAP!
I'm speechless, I can't say how much this means to me.
Please email me at leighcandle02@msn.com ASAP!
I'm speechless, I can't say how much this means to me.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Being a Mother
I have learned a lot. My own mother taught me a lot of valuable lessons of what I like to call "what-not-to-do's". It seems that I meet a lot of women who have horrible relationships with their own mothers. My soon to be Mother In Law reminds me every once in a while that I "only have one TRUE mother". I wish I could feel close to her. I wish I could feel that I make her proud. I wish that just once, she'd apologize with sincerity. I get apologies from time to time from her. She likes to do it like this - "I'm sorry you were hurt by that". She doesn't seem to understand how hurtful just that sentence is. You're sorry, but you're not sorry for what you did that hurt me, just that I happened to be hurt by it? What kind of an apology is that? I'll tell you what kind, it's the "FINE, I'll apologize, but only because you want it and NOT because I'm admitting that I did anything wrong!" kind. That's the worst kind. That's the kind that makes me think that you must not be very sorry or very sincere. An insincere apology is not an apology. It's a way out for you. It's a way for you to say that you tried.
For those of you that know me very well, you know that my relationship with my father was much more easy than that with my mother. My father tried his best, he told me that he was proud of me, that he was impressed by me and he always made me feel assured that I was always making the right choices. He stood beside me, no matter what I did. Do you know how lonely in this world you can feel when that one supportive parent suddenly dies? Your brothers don't make any effort to know you, much less keep in contact with you, your aunts and uncles barely know you and seem to not care much wether you live and breathe or not. Your mother only wants to be a woman, not a mother, not supportive. My brother Steve is my only family. He's all that's left, and all that cares. I feel bad for him because I see something in his eyes when I visit with him. I'm not sure if it's pain. But I do think that it is some sort of "big brother" responsibility. He knows I'm alone in this world and seems to want to make sure that HE is not one of the many blood-related relatives who just don't give a fuck about me and my life. I love him for that, but hate that he feels responsible. I could be way off base about him feeling responsibility, but there is something in his eyes, something that makes me feel like he wishes he could take care of me. I don't need taking care of, but rather support. I lost my lone chearleader in this world, and what I miss the most sometimes is having someone who was genuinly proud of me.
I don't mean for this to be one of those sad posts... I don't know what I mean for it to be as it is ass-early in the morning. It's just getting light outside and my world is full of questions right now. So I'm writing, that's what happens when I'm feeling all chaotic inside. Whoever reads this just gets to try to sort through the chaos.Good luck.
For those of you that know me very well, you know that my relationship with my father was much more easy than that with my mother. My father tried his best, he told me that he was proud of me, that he was impressed by me and he always made me feel assured that I was always making the right choices. He stood beside me, no matter what I did. Do you know how lonely in this world you can feel when that one supportive parent suddenly dies? Your brothers don't make any effort to know you, much less keep in contact with you, your aunts and uncles barely know you and seem to not care much wether you live and breathe or not. Your mother only wants to be a woman, not a mother, not supportive. My brother Steve is my only family. He's all that's left, and all that cares. I feel bad for him because I see something in his eyes when I visit with him. I'm not sure if it's pain. But I do think that it is some sort of "big brother" responsibility. He knows I'm alone in this world and seems to want to make sure that HE is not one of the many blood-related relatives who just don't give a fuck about me and my life. I love him for that, but hate that he feels responsible. I could be way off base about him feeling responsibility, but there is something in his eyes, something that makes me feel like he wishes he could take care of me. I don't need taking care of, but rather support. I lost my lone chearleader in this world, and what I miss the most sometimes is having someone who was genuinly proud of me.
I don't mean for this to be one of those sad posts... I don't know what I mean for it to be as it is ass-early in the morning. It's just getting light outside and my world is full of questions right now. So I'm writing, that's what happens when I'm feeling all chaotic inside. Whoever reads this just gets to try to sort through the chaos.Good luck.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Just because they sing country?
Makes them a target? Makes it so that they can be judged harshly, their music taken off of the air completely? They are not recognized in the country music circle in the least now, all because of their opinions? Yet, Pink has a song that makes pretty much the same statement.... I doubt her music will be removed from the air, or that she will not be recognized at any of the various award ceremonies...
I'm proud to be a Dixie Chicks fan, I'm proud that they have stood up for themselves, I'm proud to be me, and able to stand up for what I believe in as well. I will never understand why people have turned their backs on such an amazingly talented group of women WHO HAPPEN TO SPEAK THEIR MIND! I thought this was America - free speach and all that... hmmm.
Yes, it's been a couple of years and I'm still irritated about it. Probably because I've not had the guts before now to speak up and say I'M with YOU Chicks! Because I fear confrontation, because I hate debates for the fear that I will be uninformed, or I will miss something that someone else didn't... and will be proven wrong. Well... go ahead and try to prove me wrong. I don't give a flying shit. HA! I believe what I believe, and I will always stand behind these women.
The lyrics of this song are so strong and so empowering! I love it!
If you haven't watched this before, watch it now, as a favor to me... just because.
I'm also proud to stand behind this woman and her words, this video made me cry!
I'm proud to be a Dixie Chicks fan, I'm proud that they have stood up for themselves, I'm proud to be me, and able to stand up for what I believe in as well. I will never understand why people have turned their backs on such an amazingly talented group of women WHO HAPPEN TO SPEAK THEIR MIND! I thought this was America - free speach and all that... hmmm.
Yes, it's been a couple of years and I'm still irritated about it. Probably because I've not had the guts before now to speak up and say I'M with YOU Chicks! Because I fear confrontation, because I hate debates for the fear that I will be uninformed, or I will miss something that someone else didn't... and will be proven wrong. Well... go ahead and try to prove me wrong. I don't give a flying shit. HA! I believe what I believe, and I will always stand behind these women.
The lyrics of this song are so strong and so empowering! I love it!
If you haven't watched this before, watch it now, as a favor to me... just because.
I'm also proud to stand behind this woman and her words, this video made me cry!
Ah the sweet sweet internet
I just spoke with my brother, for the first time I actually remembered to call him ON his birthday. He says "on your blog, it says something about health problems, are you ok?". Interesting, I think, that I didn't know that he visited my blog or even was that internet savvy. My apologies Steve. So I just think that it is a little funny that he keeps up with it.
So I suppose I should post, since I will be gone on a very girly trip for two weeks starting this weekend. I am pretty sure that I will not be able to update very often for the summer. They tend to be very busy with camping and road trips. Thank God that I have a man that appreciates that about me and supports me to take off for a week or two while leaving him behind to keep working. I know, I'm extremely spoiled!
I mentioned before health problems... so I'll give you a little update on that so that those of you that are worried (but not enough to call, I won't mention any naSTEVEmes) could put your minds to rest. :)
We found fibroids on my uterus. In short they are tumors that just keep growing and growing. They are not cancerous and they are not shown to have a very high success rate at either treating them nor removing them surgically. I'm seeing a Licensed Naturopathic Physician for treatment. We'll see if after 6 months - 1 year of treatment with supplements, lifestyle changes and other treatment if they stay the same or shrink in size. If they don't shrink and my symptoms get worse or even stay the same then we will talk about surgery to remove my uterus. NOT a nice option. I would opt for the procedure that lets me at least keep my ovaries in place as to avoid the need for hormone therapy through menopause.
I still have a couple of tests, one is to determine how my body processes and converts hormones. That will tell us exactly what level of progesterone that I will need to take, since fibroids are the result of too much estrogen in your system. If we can balance it out, it's possible that they will either stop growing, or even better, they could even shrink. It doesn't look extremely promising that I won't have to have my uterus ripped out... but it's worth a shot! Ok, everyone updated enough now? The only thing that I skipped over was the symptoms that fibroids cause, because it's rather "girly" and I don't think that everyone would appreciate hearing about my 15 day periods (that have caused me to be aneimic and other issues result from bleeding like that). So I'll skip that part, well at least most of it.
In other news:
My trip - I'm going to Portland, Roseburg, Medford & Tacoma. I'll be visiting friends and the very little family that I have left along the way while also doing parties for my business. I have 4 parties planned and I can't WAIT to see everyone!
I'll be gone for 2 full weeks and the only thing that upsets me about that is that I won't get to be camping with Adrian during that time. :) I love that time with him.
After I get back, I'll have a week to prepare for a trip to Tennessee, to be with my dear friend Jenn, who's having a homebirth (I'm so proud of you!) only a couple of short weeks after making an out of state move! Crazy, but awesome! She is one of the strongest women that I know and I'm proud to be her friend, and to be there to help her during such an important event!
After Tennessee, I should be home for a while, focusing on business and getting a LOT of time in with Adrian while the kiddo's are off with other family for the summer. We're planning our wedding and this summer we'll be looking for the perfect spot in the mountains to commit to each other.
What else, OH kitties! Did I already tell you all about the kitties? They are so cute! They are 3 weeks old (or is it 4? hmm) and they are just starting to play with each other. They are amazing, so much fun to watch their little uncoordinated bodies attempting to go in one direction, but their big heads just pulling them down. lol. It's quite a sight.
I think this has turned out long enough now... on to my breakfast and vitamins. Hope everyone has a great day! :)
So I suppose I should post, since I will be gone on a very girly trip for two weeks starting this weekend. I am pretty sure that I will not be able to update very often for the summer. They tend to be very busy with camping and road trips. Thank God that I have a man that appreciates that about me and supports me to take off for a week or two while leaving him behind to keep working. I know, I'm extremely spoiled!
I mentioned before health problems... so I'll give you a little update on that so that those of you that are worried (but not enough to call, I won't mention any naSTEVEmes) could put your minds to rest. :)
We found fibroids on my uterus. In short they are tumors that just keep growing and growing. They are not cancerous and they are not shown to have a very high success rate at either treating them nor removing them surgically. I'm seeing a Licensed Naturopathic Physician for treatment. We'll see if after 6 months - 1 year of treatment with supplements, lifestyle changes and other treatment if they stay the same or shrink in size. If they don't shrink and my symptoms get worse or even stay the same then we will talk about surgery to remove my uterus. NOT a nice option. I would opt for the procedure that lets me at least keep my ovaries in place as to avoid the need for hormone therapy through menopause.
I still have a couple of tests, one is to determine how my body processes and converts hormones. That will tell us exactly what level of progesterone that I will need to take, since fibroids are the result of too much estrogen in your system. If we can balance it out, it's possible that they will either stop growing, or even better, they could even shrink. It doesn't look extremely promising that I won't have to have my uterus ripped out... but it's worth a shot! Ok, everyone updated enough now? The only thing that I skipped over was the symptoms that fibroids cause, because it's rather "girly" and I don't think that everyone would appreciate hearing about my 15 day periods (that have caused me to be aneimic and other issues result from bleeding like that). So I'll skip that part, well at least most of it.
In other news:
My trip - I'm going to Portland, Roseburg, Medford & Tacoma. I'll be visiting friends and the very little family that I have left along the way while also doing parties for my business. I have 4 parties planned and I can't WAIT to see everyone!
I'll be gone for 2 full weeks and the only thing that upsets me about that is that I won't get to be camping with Adrian during that time. :) I love that time with him.
After I get back, I'll have a week to prepare for a trip to Tennessee, to be with my dear friend Jenn, who's having a homebirth (I'm so proud of you!) only a couple of short weeks after making an out of state move! Crazy, but awesome! She is one of the strongest women that I know and I'm proud to be her friend, and to be there to help her during such an important event!
After Tennessee, I should be home for a while, focusing on business and getting a LOT of time in with Adrian while the kiddo's are off with other family for the summer. We're planning our wedding and this summer we'll be looking for the perfect spot in the mountains to commit to each other.
What else, OH kitties! Did I already tell you all about the kitties? They are so cute! They are 3 weeks old (or is it 4? hmm) and they are just starting to play with each other. They are amazing, so much fun to watch their little uncoordinated bodies attempting to go in one direction, but their big heads just pulling them down. lol. It's quite a sight.
I think this has turned out long enough now... on to my breakfast and vitamins. Hope everyone has a great day! :)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
One for the Records
Yesterday, was one for the records....
I'm having some medical "issues", I'll update when I'm ready on that, and when I know everything. But for right now we start off yesterday by going down into town for blood tests, I get about 2 hours to work with between the time I drop off Oriana and head to town to the time I have to be back to pick her up. It is NOT much time! lol
So, here's how it went down.
7am - up and getting dressed
8am - yelling at kids to PLEASE hurry UP!
8:30am - drive down to town
9am - get lost finding the lab
9:30am - find lab, get tests done - the only part of the day that went smoothly!
10am - arrive at the tire place that Adrian was just at, getting it set up for me to just pull in and get the new tires put on.
10:45am - leave the tire place, go to the freeway to head to Costco for gas
11am - pulled over on the side of the freeway onramp, gas is GONE, car is NOT happy. I call the school to tell them no one will be there to pick up my daughter! :(
11:15 - still can't find my roadside service information, can't get in touch with Adrian, can't get in touch with ANYONE. Called the place where I bought my car and they have my cars extended warranty listed under some OTHER guys name! Officer arrives on the scene, she was about 3 1/2 feet tall. I found it amusing, I know, I shouldn't have, but I did. She puts a gallon of gas in my tank after insisting that I cancell the tow truck from my roadside assistance. It doesn't work. My car is sitting on too much of an incline and it's not going to start on just one gallon. She leaves. I call the tow truck again and Becca.
11:30 The kids school calls me to tell me that one of the teachers wives with a daughter in Oriana's preschool class would be glad to take her home until I can get there. The alternative is to have her sit in the office. I remembered the woman from meeting her before at school and decided to let her take her. Becca gets there with another gallon (the largest size of a gas can that they sold at the GAS STATION!) It still doesn't work.
11:45 the car battery dies from trying to start it. We girls jump it.
12:15 the tow truck arrives and they pull my car up onto the back of the tow truck until it's level, and put more gas in.
12:30 Car battery dies again - tow truck driver jumps it again
12:45 5 gallons of gas later, the car starts.
1:00 Becca and I are enjoying a margarita with lunch, finally some relief.
2:00-3:00 I go back to the tire store for the incredible shaking my steering wheel keeps doing since getting the tires that morning.
4:pm I'm finally on the road again and I have still not gotten everything done, but I was still on my way home. I had to have Ophelia ride the bus home with Becca's kids because I couldn't get her in time either.
4:30pm I start driving home and get pulled over. I get a speeding ticket, because I must have somewhere on my record "do not EVER let this woman off with a warning" since I've not ever gotten out of a ticket. My spedometer was wrong because of the tires, they are bigger than what we had so it through it all off....
5pm I finally get Oriana
5:15 I'm at home, changing my clothes and getting ready to go out again to get Ophelia, when I leave I back into a boulder in the driveway. Yay. I had only hit it with the tow hitch, so it's ok but man I was pissed.
7:30pm I'm finally home to do the massive loads of dishes, laundry and to make dinner for everyone. Yippee. No wonder I couldn't sleep!
ARGH!
I'm having some medical "issues", I'll update when I'm ready on that, and when I know everything. But for right now we start off yesterday by going down into town for blood tests, I get about 2 hours to work with between the time I drop off Oriana and head to town to the time I have to be back to pick her up. It is NOT much time! lol
So, here's how it went down.
7am - up and getting dressed
8am - yelling at kids to PLEASE hurry UP!
8:30am - drive down to town
9am - get lost finding the lab
9:30am - find lab, get tests done - the only part of the day that went smoothly!
10am - arrive at the tire place that Adrian was just at, getting it set up for me to just pull in and get the new tires put on.
10:45am - leave the tire place, go to the freeway to head to Costco for gas
11am - pulled over on the side of the freeway onramp, gas is GONE, car is NOT happy. I call the school to tell them no one will be there to pick up my daughter! :(
11:15 - still can't find my roadside service information, can't get in touch with Adrian, can't get in touch with ANYONE. Called the place where I bought my car and they have my cars extended warranty listed under some OTHER guys name! Officer arrives on the scene, she was about 3 1/2 feet tall. I found it amusing, I know, I shouldn't have, but I did. She puts a gallon of gas in my tank after insisting that I cancell the tow truck from my roadside assistance. It doesn't work. My car is sitting on too much of an incline and it's not going to start on just one gallon. She leaves. I call the tow truck again and Becca.
11:30 The kids school calls me to tell me that one of the teachers wives with a daughter in Oriana's preschool class would be glad to take her home until I can get there. The alternative is to have her sit in the office. I remembered the woman from meeting her before at school and decided to let her take her. Becca gets there with another gallon (the largest size of a gas can that they sold at the GAS STATION!) It still doesn't work.
11:45 the car battery dies from trying to start it. We girls jump it.
12:15 the tow truck arrives and they pull my car up onto the back of the tow truck until it's level, and put more gas in.
12:30 Car battery dies again - tow truck driver jumps it again
12:45 5 gallons of gas later, the car starts.
1:00 Becca and I are enjoying a margarita with lunch, finally some relief.
2:00-3:00 I go back to the tire store for the incredible shaking my steering wheel keeps doing since getting the tires that morning.
4:pm I'm finally on the road again and I have still not gotten everything done, but I was still on my way home. I had to have Ophelia ride the bus home with Becca's kids because I couldn't get her in time either.
4:30pm I start driving home and get pulled over. I get a speeding ticket, because I must have somewhere on my record "do not EVER let this woman off with a warning" since I've not ever gotten out of a ticket. My spedometer was wrong because of the tires, they are bigger than what we had so it through it all off....
5pm I finally get Oriana
5:15 I'm at home, changing my clothes and getting ready to go out again to get Ophelia, when I leave I back into a boulder in the driveway. Yay. I had only hit it with the tow hitch, so it's ok but man I was pissed.
7:30pm I'm finally home to do the massive loads of dishes, laundry and to make dinner for everyone. Yippee. No wonder I couldn't sleep!
ARGH!
Friday, May 18, 2007
NatchraLeigh SickLeigh
Definately sick. Definately tired and definately stuffy. I'm sick, and I am tired of being sick already. It's been a while since I had a cold like this, I think probably since my Dad passed and I was sick for months afterward... I feel like death on a stick.
Let's talk about something a little more positive, shall we?
Mothers Day
This year we went camping for Mothers Day, as we usually do. This time we drove to Roseburg overnight on Friday. We had planned on getting there Saturday early morning, napping for a few hours, then visiting a couple of friends before heading out to our camping spot. But my Father in Law had a different idea. It didn't matter that neither Adrian or I had slept since Thursday night, he wanted to head out NOW. So, no rest, no friends, no nothing but hooking/loading up and getting out of town! We were exhausted, but to argue with this man is like a death wish.
Friday afternoon we arrive at the campground with our in laws and the new (very old, but new to us) camp trailer that they gave to us for a very low price. We set up and Adrian and I thought we would nap, but again it wasn't in the cards and we didn't end up getting to sleep until about 9 or 10pm that night. Upon our arrival it was very chilly, overcast and slightly windy. It was cold that night but we had a great fire to keep us warm and a nice little heater inside of the trailer. I normally am a tent camping girl, I wouldn't buy a trailer to camp in because "that's just not REAL camping" but alas.... I'm a trailer camper now. Mainly because I can leave it packed, packing for camping is the worst part of the whole deal. It's the part that makes me dread it even though I LOVE LOVE LOVE to go camping. So now, I just leave the trailer packed, throw some clothes together and fresh foods (because canned goods and kitchen supplies are now stored in the trailer!) and I just hook up and go! I'm SO excited about how easy it all just became.
Oh... back on track to Mothers Day. On Mothers Day we awoke and I had to remind Adrian that it was MY DAY and so he needed to wake up with the kids and get a fire giong to keeep them warm. But at that point he jumped out of bed and went to work with the kids. Oriana crawled into bed with me and we laid there for a few minutes until the realization that our bladders were full and we had to get up and head to the restrooms. By that time, I'm up, no sleeping in at all. lol
So, we had fried potatoes & eggs for breakfast, YUM. I didn't have to cook, YAY again! I of course started my breakfast with roasted marshmallows. I hate to think of what is in those things, but I just can't see camping without them. After breakfast I tried fishing, gave up quickly and back to the camp fire for me. We ended up fishing for a bit and then having burgers for lunch. After lunch Adrians mom and I played a couple of games of cribbage, I think we ended in a tie. Then Adrian, the girls, his mom and I headed off on a little hike to find another fishing hole. We found a few good spots, and on the side of a curb on the paved bridge over the river we found a bat. A bat! It was sleeping upside down just stuck to the curb. It was the strangest thing, not a typical resting spot for a bat I didn't think!
When we got back to camp, or sometime during the day, I'm really not sure about the order of events at this point - lol, but I took a long nap in the trailer. I laid there and read in a magazine for a while first and drifted off for what seemed like 2 or 3 hourse... but I don't know how long it was. It felt great though!
That night all of the girls slept in the tent and Adrian and I sat at the table in the trailer and played cribbage for a while... well, until I was tired of losing anyway.
We drove back Monday, stopped in Burns for a late lunch break with a visit to the park to let everyone stretch their legs. It was such a cool old-school park that I can't believe I didn't take any pictures, we all had a lot of fun there. The play structures were unlike any I've seen before.
All in all - it was my best Mothers Day yet. I hope yours was equally wonderfull.
Let's talk about something a little more positive, shall we?
Mothers Day
This year we went camping for Mothers Day, as we usually do. This time we drove to Roseburg overnight on Friday. We had planned on getting there Saturday early morning, napping for a few hours, then visiting a couple of friends before heading out to our camping spot. But my Father in Law had a different idea. It didn't matter that neither Adrian or I had slept since Thursday night, he wanted to head out NOW. So, no rest, no friends, no nothing but hooking/loading up and getting out of town! We were exhausted, but to argue with this man is like a death wish.
Friday afternoon we arrive at the campground with our in laws and the new (very old, but new to us) camp trailer that they gave to us for a very low price. We set up and Adrian and I thought we would nap, but again it wasn't in the cards and we didn't end up getting to sleep until about 9 or 10pm that night. Upon our arrival it was very chilly, overcast and slightly windy. It was cold that night but we had a great fire to keep us warm and a nice little heater inside of the trailer. I normally am a tent camping girl, I wouldn't buy a trailer to camp in because "that's just not REAL camping" but alas.... I'm a trailer camper now. Mainly because I can leave it packed, packing for camping is the worst part of the whole deal. It's the part that makes me dread it even though I LOVE LOVE LOVE to go camping. So now, I just leave the trailer packed, throw some clothes together and fresh foods (because canned goods and kitchen supplies are now stored in the trailer!) and I just hook up and go! I'm SO excited about how easy it all just became.
Oh... back on track to Mothers Day. On Mothers Day we awoke and I had to remind Adrian that it was MY DAY and so he needed to wake up with the kids and get a fire giong to keeep them warm. But at that point he jumped out of bed and went to work with the kids. Oriana crawled into bed with me and we laid there for a few minutes until the realization that our bladders were full and we had to get up and head to the restrooms. By that time, I'm up, no sleeping in at all. lol
So, we had fried potatoes & eggs for breakfast, YUM. I didn't have to cook, YAY again! I of course started my breakfast with roasted marshmallows. I hate to think of what is in those things, but I just can't see camping without them. After breakfast I tried fishing, gave up quickly and back to the camp fire for me. We ended up fishing for a bit and then having burgers for lunch. After lunch Adrians mom and I played a couple of games of cribbage, I think we ended in a tie. Then Adrian, the girls, his mom and I headed off on a little hike to find another fishing hole. We found a few good spots, and on the side of a curb on the paved bridge over the river we found a bat. A bat! It was sleeping upside down just stuck to the curb. It was the strangest thing, not a typical resting spot for a bat I didn't think!
When we got back to camp, or sometime during the day, I'm really not sure about the order of events at this point - lol, but I took a long nap in the trailer. I laid there and read in a magazine for a while first and drifted off for what seemed like 2 or 3 hourse... but I don't know how long it was. It felt great though!
That night all of the girls slept in the tent and Adrian and I sat at the table in the trailer and played cribbage for a while... well, until I was tired of losing anyway.
We drove back Monday, stopped in Burns for a late lunch break with a visit to the park to let everyone stretch their legs. It was such a cool old-school park that I can't believe I didn't take any pictures, we all had a lot of fun there. The play structures were unlike any I've seen before.
All in all - it was my best Mothers Day yet. I hope yours was equally wonderfull.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sounds like someone's got a case of the Mondays!
Yes, I do.... :o)
I feel great, as I usually do on Mondays. My Mondays are easy-going and slow-moving. I love it. The house is quiet and I feel at ease, not under pressure.
Today I have bills to pay, weekly chore/grocery plan to get started on, planting and laundry to do. I think I'll even fit a late morning nap in there, given my weekend, I'm thoroughly exhausted!
This weekend was crazy, I flew to Seattle to go to a training class on Saturday. It was very last minute, as it usually is with me :). I got a phenomenal deal on my flight and car rental thanks to Becca looking out for me. I flirted a little with the guy at the car rental booth and got a free upgrade to a car with navigation, an absolute God send! That was awesome! I drove an hour to everywhere that I went. lol. So that navigation came in SOOOOOO handy! I got back yesterday and I am still sooo tired.
Adrian took the girls camping for the weekend, they all had a blast and they picked me up at the airport filthy and smelling like campfire, so I know they had a great time. They camped where they could fish and play all day, the weather was fabulous this weekend! I wish that I could have gone with them but I am so grateful that I have someone so supportive that he would do that for me! I needed a get-away anyhow!
I'm planning out the summer and it's starting to look pretty full already. I can't wait! I have a couple of trips lined up, and it's so much fun to plan. I'm going to see so many friends that I haven't seen forever!
Well, I'm ready for that nap I mentioned. Have a great day everyone! :)
I feel great, as I usually do on Mondays. My Mondays are easy-going and slow-moving. I love it. The house is quiet and I feel at ease, not under pressure.
Today I have bills to pay, weekly chore/grocery plan to get started on, planting and laundry to do. I think I'll even fit a late morning nap in there, given my weekend, I'm thoroughly exhausted!
This weekend was crazy, I flew to Seattle to go to a training class on Saturday. It was very last minute, as it usually is with me :). I got a phenomenal deal on my flight and car rental thanks to Becca looking out for me. I flirted a little with the guy at the car rental booth and got a free upgrade to a car with navigation, an absolute God send! That was awesome! I drove an hour to everywhere that I went. lol. So that navigation came in SOOOOOO handy! I got back yesterday and I am still sooo tired.
Adrian took the girls camping for the weekend, they all had a blast and they picked me up at the airport filthy and smelling like campfire, so I know they had a great time. They camped where they could fish and play all day, the weather was fabulous this weekend! I wish that I could have gone with them but I am so grateful that I have someone so supportive that he would do that for me! I needed a get-away anyhow!
I'm planning out the summer and it's starting to look pretty full already. I can't wait! I have a couple of trips lined up, and it's so much fun to plan. I'm going to see so many friends that I haven't seen forever!
Well, I'm ready for that nap I mentioned. Have a great day everyone! :)
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Chuggin' Along
I know, it's Wednesday, not Monday. But it sort of feels like a Monday. I haven't been well lately, fighting depression off as hard as I can, but it's been a rough couple of weeks!
I've got a lot going on and I get overwhelmed so easily. But most of it is happy and exciting stuff! I'm starting a new at home biz. that's totally amazing!!! I am planning my wedding! YAY! I'm so excited about that... it's so much fun!
I am a nerd, I started a blog I just can't seem to find any interesting words to finish... hmm... maybe I'll add to it later. For now though, it is just a tiny baby blog. :)
I've got a lot going on and I get overwhelmed so easily. But most of it is happy and exciting stuff! I'm starting a new at home biz. that's totally amazing!!! I am planning my wedding! YAY! I'm so excited about that... it's so much fun!
I am a nerd, I started a blog I just can't seem to find any interesting words to finish... hmm... maybe I'll add to it later. For now though, it is just a tiny baby blog. :)
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Ranting, Ranting and More Ranting!
What is wrong with me this week? My stomach has been "icky" all week, I've been incredibly bitchy (Poor kids & Adrian). I know a few things for sure, I've been eating crap-food and that's what's going on with my tummy (duh) except that even the next day I just feel like crap. But the bitchi-ness... I don't know. There is a lot of turmoil going on in my head and I guess it's just eating me up in such a way that I'm lashing out at everyone with evil-bitch attitude. I don't mean to, I really don't.
There's the friend issue - repairing a few relationships and at the same time letting go to a few very negative and hurtful relationships... that's not easy stuff you know!
Then there's the "quirks" about my house that I'm extremely frustrated with. Our water decides a few times a day to disappear and that means I have to hike up the little road behind me to the well, to restart the pump. Which is ok, sometimes, but when you have conditioner in your hair and shave gel drying to your legs and other unmentionables when the water goes out and you have to take that hike... NOT cool at all. It goes out every time I use the washing machine. Which means that I'm just not doing laundry like I should be because it irritates me so. Then there's the power bill that I got on my door Monday, letting me know that I need to reimburse them for what they paid for my portion. Well, when I moved in, they told me that the power was included in my rent. So this all makes me wonder "WHAT'S NEXT?". There's other little things too... but I will continue this rant another time.
Then there's the house that is "possibly" coming up for rent right next to a girlfriends house which is in the area closer to Boise that I wanted to be at in the first place. It's on the same driveway - she is a single mom and Adrian is gone a lot so having each other out here in the sticks would be nice. It'd be nice to make big dinners a couple of nights a week and share meals, trade off the kids and do a garden together. But who the hell wants to move twice in two months? And I like the little tiny town I live so close to that I could walk to. But but but but but!!!!
Then there is also the garden, which I have seeds, dirt, compost and starts for. But I am certainly not going to start that garden just to have to move and leave it.
On that same note, who wants to bother getting unpacked when they don't know if they will be moving out in a few weeks anyway??? So I haven't bothered making this feel like home and I think that's a lot of my turmoil in my head, just not feeling at home or really settled.
We won't know about that other house for 10 days or so, the guy is on vacation and is going to decide if he'll rent it out or keep living in it by the time he gets back. So I have to just sit, restlessly, sit still and keep up the everyday.
This turned into a book! I'll stop for the day and hopefully now that I've totally ranted I will feel good enough to clean up and do some laundry. I have SO many chores and shit to do it's just rediculous.
Oh, one more thing. My cat is swelling. She brought home a big boy kitty when we first moved in and now she is swelling, she's probably twice her normal body weight now. lol. Yes, I realize I should have had her fixed, and she will be after she has these babies. :)
There's the friend issue - repairing a few relationships and at the same time letting go to a few very negative and hurtful relationships... that's not easy stuff you know!
Then there's the "quirks" about my house that I'm extremely frustrated with. Our water decides a few times a day to disappear and that means I have to hike up the little road behind me to the well, to restart the pump. Which is ok, sometimes, but when you have conditioner in your hair and shave gel drying to your legs and other unmentionables when the water goes out and you have to take that hike... NOT cool at all. It goes out every time I use the washing machine. Which means that I'm just not doing laundry like I should be because it irritates me so. Then there's the power bill that I got on my door Monday, letting me know that I need to reimburse them for what they paid for my portion. Well, when I moved in, they told me that the power was included in my rent. So this all makes me wonder "WHAT'S NEXT?". There's other little things too... but I will continue this rant another time.
Then there's the house that is "possibly" coming up for rent right next to a girlfriends house which is in the area closer to Boise that I wanted to be at in the first place. It's on the same driveway - she is a single mom and Adrian is gone a lot so having each other out here in the sticks would be nice. It'd be nice to make big dinners a couple of nights a week and share meals, trade off the kids and do a garden together. But who the hell wants to move twice in two months? And I like the little tiny town I live so close to that I could walk to. But but but but but!!!!
Then there is also the garden, which I have seeds, dirt, compost and starts for. But I am certainly not going to start that garden just to have to move and leave it.
On that same note, who wants to bother getting unpacked when they don't know if they will be moving out in a few weeks anyway??? So I haven't bothered making this feel like home and I think that's a lot of my turmoil in my head, just not feeling at home or really settled.
We won't know about that other house for 10 days or so, the guy is on vacation and is going to decide if he'll rent it out or keep living in it by the time he gets back. So I have to just sit, restlessly, sit still and keep up the everyday.
This turned into a book! I'll stop for the day and hopefully now that I've totally ranted I will feel good enough to clean up and do some laundry. I have SO many chores and shit to do it's just rediculous.
Oh, one more thing. My cat is swelling. She brought home a big boy kitty when we first moved in and now she is swelling, she's probably twice her normal body weight now. lol. Yes, I realize I should have had her fixed, and she will be after she has these babies. :)
Monday, April 16, 2007
Hello again Stranger
Nice to see you stopping by to see that I'm still alive and blogging :)
It's a Monday, and I had that blogging urge. Last week we finally figured out the internet thing and I'm back to having DSL - Thank the Lord for that one! Things have been crazy but we are trying to force things to slow down, just in time for the good weather to start and the itching for camping/hiking/fishing - and whatever else will keep up outside and away from the house all weekend - every weekend! Not that we plan to stay away from the house, we just end up that way from Spring through Fall. I love it and wouldn't have it any other way. I can not imagine spending my life indoors when the weather outside and the mountain air is sooo nice. I'm very fortunate that Adrian hasn't sent me looking for work yet. I don't know how we would accomplish anything if I were working, seems like we always have so much to do.
Updates, hmmm... I don't know what to update on. We are getting settled into the house, we are meeting people up here and we are really enjoying it here. I love it, more than I knew I would.
Easter was last week and the girls had a lot of fun, though with being kind of un-settled with things it was hard to do all of the things we normally do for Easter, like an egg hunt, somehow we missed that completely!
Adrian got me a basket with gourmet chocolates of a very wide variety, a huge pink bunny and a sappy card that made me bawl as soon as I saw the first line! lol
We have been working a little at a time in planning the wedding and so far the wedding party is the hardest thing to decide on... shouldn't that be the easiest? lol
I'm trying to sell the Drive-Thru Espresso Trailer - since our taxes turned out to be more than devastating! Horrible! Stupid ass TAXES!
I'm also trying to learn how to garden, which can be a job all in itself... I'm learning though.
I guess you could say I'm learning to plan my day/week better too - being up here kinda forces you to do that! I have to plan out which days I'm going to town and exactly what I have to do while in town - otherwise everything gets all mucked up.
Speaking of town... I'm headed out as soon as I get some normal clothes on.... hopefully it won't be longer than next Monday before I post again. :)
It's a Monday, and I had that blogging urge. Last week we finally figured out the internet thing and I'm back to having DSL - Thank the Lord for that one! Things have been crazy but we are trying to force things to slow down, just in time for the good weather to start and the itching for camping/hiking/fishing - and whatever else will keep up outside and away from the house all weekend - every weekend! Not that we plan to stay away from the house, we just end up that way from Spring through Fall. I love it and wouldn't have it any other way. I can not imagine spending my life indoors when the weather outside and the mountain air is sooo nice. I'm very fortunate that Adrian hasn't sent me looking for work yet. I don't know how we would accomplish anything if I were working, seems like we always have so much to do.
Updates, hmmm... I don't know what to update on. We are getting settled into the house, we are meeting people up here and we are really enjoying it here. I love it, more than I knew I would.
Easter was last week and the girls had a lot of fun, though with being kind of un-settled with things it was hard to do all of the things we normally do for Easter, like an egg hunt, somehow we missed that completely!
Adrian got me a basket with gourmet chocolates of a very wide variety, a huge pink bunny and a sappy card that made me bawl as soon as I saw the first line! lol
We have been working a little at a time in planning the wedding and so far the wedding party is the hardest thing to decide on... shouldn't that be the easiest? lol
I'm trying to sell the Drive-Thru Espresso Trailer - since our taxes turned out to be more than devastating! Horrible! Stupid ass TAXES!
I'm also trying to learn how to garden, which can be a job all in itself... I'm learning though.
I guess you could say I'm learning to plan my day/week better too - being up here kinda forces you to do that! I have to plan out which days I'm going to town and exactly what I have to do while in town - otherwise everything gets all mucked up.
Speaking of town... I'm headed out as soon as I get some normal clothes on.... hopefully it won't be longer than next Monday before I post again. :)
Monday, March 26, 2007
Online again!
Finally online again. It's been a few weeks since I blogged and I actually missed it. :)
I just got back online last night, and I'm still trying to catch up, slowly though as I have a LOT of work to do. It's interesting how much time I've physically worked during a time of no computer or TV. There is a lot of time wasted! Heck, 2 hours a day of TV comes out to roughly 60 hours a month that we sit and watch TELEVISION? Wow.
That is a lot of time that we could be doing other things. But, I still love my shows, and usually I TIVO the very few shows that I do watch, which means less time in front of the TV because of no commercials. I usually sit at night when I'm too tired to do anything else, but I also usually end up doing other things too... like folding clothes, crocheting or knitting (well, I give it my best but I still suck at both of those!).
Well I will have to catch you all up a little at a time, or perhaps I will write a book of a blog tomorrow... who knows! :)
I just got back online last night, and I'm still trying to catch up, slowly though as I have a LOT of work to do. It's interesting how much time I've physically worked during a time of no computer or TV. There is a lot of time wasted! Heck, 2 hours a day of TV comes out to roughly 60 hours a month that we sit and watch TELEVISION? Wow.
That is a lot of time that we could be doing other things. But, I still love my shows, and usually I TIVO the very few shows that I do watch, which means less time in front of the TV because of no commercials. I usually sit at night when I'm too tired to do anything else, but I also usually end up doing other things too... like folding clothes, crocheting or knitting (well, I give it my best but I still suck at both of those!).
Well I will have to catch you all up a little at a time, or perhaps I will write a book of a blog tomorrow... who knows! :)
Monday, March 05, 2007
My Horoscope Told Me Not To
Yep, that's right, it told me not to. :) So I skipped my appointment today since I still have some work to do with the taxes before taking them in, but I should be able to finish it today.
Here's an interesting question -
DO FRIENDS HAVE TO BE CONVENIENT?
Most of my friends do not support my move to the sticks. I keep getting comments like "well I don't ever go there" or "well I don't like to drive that far". It makes me wonder what I'm worth as a friend I suppose. I'm a little hurt that people think that we "won't ever see each other" just because I move an hour away from where I live now. I don't see anyone on a regular basis as it is now, and I am usually the one to instigate any kind of a get together anyway. I'm going to be living 30 minutes away from Boise, where there is all kinds of things to do, places to meet up at, everything. But I get this kind of attitude about moving? Am I petty? I would drive an hour to visit my friend for a few hours. If the location of "me" is inconvenient, does that mean that you won't be interested in visiting "me" since I'm not in a location that is convenient to "you"?
I would expect for friends to be happy for me, because if they really know me, then they know that we will still be friends and still get together even if I live a little farther away. I've had two people respond right away with comments like "well call me when you move in so I can come up and see it!" or "it sounds like it's so you, I'm happy for you." - those comments were such a relief to hear.
I am so sad that people think that I'm just going to disappear. I hoped for much different reactions. It is very nice to know that I will be missed, but I don't think I should be missed - is my point. I'm still close enough, I'll still be in town every week at least. Ahh well, I guess I just have a job ahead of me to prove to everyone that I'm not forever away.
On another note...
I'm trying really hard lately to think positive about things, and it does seem to be working. It's a challenge. It is so worth it though. I had wrote out the things I wanted in a home, and 30 minutes later I found the house that holds most of those things. A few weeks ago while I was in Sun Valley I was telling Adrian how I want the best of both worlds with everything... How I loved this little house in Hailey that was within walking distance of the grocery store, library and coffee shops... and how it had neighbors, but not too close, and the street was so charming. I also told him how much I adored the country lifestyle and how amazing I feel out by myself, when I can blast my music and not worry about people freaking out next door... that kind of thing. I realized yesterday that the cabin IS the best of both worlds, it's barely 1/4 mile outside of town, within a mile of the school, and definately walking distance to the stores and such. At the same time it feels like you are totally in the middle of nowhere out there, at peace, enjoying the quiet while being so close to town.
I think that this all fell into a place for a reason.
Here's an interesting question -
DO FRIENDS HAVE TO BE CONVENIENT?
Most of my friends do not support my move to the sticks. I keep getting comments like "well I don't ever go there" or "well I don't like to drive that far". It makes me wonder what I'm worth as a friend I suppose. I'm a little hurt that people think that we "won't ever see each other" just because I move an hour away from where I live now. I don't see anyone on a regular basis as it is now, and I am usually the one to instigate any kind of a get together anyway. I'm going to be living 30 minutes away from Boise, where there is all kinds of things to do, places to meet up at, everything. But I get this kind of attitude about moving? Am I petty? I would drive an hour to visit my friend for a few hours. If the location of "me" is inconvenient, does that mean that you won't be interested in visiting "me" since I'm not in a location that is convenient to "you"?
I would expect for friends to be happy for me, because if they really know me, then they know that we will still be friends and still get together even if I live a little farther away. I've had two people respond right away with comments like "well call me when you move in so I can come up and see it!" or "it sounds like it's so you, I'm happy for you." - those comments were such a relief to hear.
I am so sad that people think that I'm just going to disappear. I hoped for much different reactions. It is very nice to know that I will be missed, but I don't think I should be missed - is my point. I'm still close enough, I'll still be in town every week at least. Ahh well, I guess I just have a job ahead of me to prove to everyone that I'm not forever away.
On another note...
I'm trying really hard lately to think positive about things, and it does seem to be working. It's a challenge. It is so worth it though. I had wrote out the things I wanted in a home, and 30 minutes later I found the house that holds most of those things. A few weeks ago while I was in Sun Valley I was telling Adrian how I want the best of both worlds with everything... How I loved this little house in Hailey that was within walking distance of the grocery store, library and coffee shops... and how it had neighbors, but not too close, and the street was so charming. I also told him how much I adored the country lifestyle and how amazing I feel out by myself, when I can blast my music and not worry about people freaking out next door... that kind of thing. I realized yesterday that the cabin IS the best of both worlds, it's barely 1/4 mile outside of town, within a mile of the school, and definately walking distance to the stores and such. At the same time it feels like you are totally in the middle of nowhere out there, at peace, enjoying the quiet while being so close to town.
I think that this all fell into a place for a reason.
Monday again - busy week ahead!
So this will probably be my only post this week! :P
Today I have to finish my taxes, I have my appointment at 1! EEEK!
After I get home from that the girls are supposed to have swim lessons, if they aren't still hacking like crazy still. Then I get to make dinner for everyone, clean up after everyone and try to not be angry about it. Then I have to keep working on packing, making several phone calls.
Tomorrow I will take a load up to the cabin and get a PO Box and go by the school. I wish I knew someone to borrow a trailer from for the week, that would make my trips alot better, but oh well. I'll take the small loads if that is what I have to do to get moved!
I have so much I want to write about, but I'll have to do it later, I have too much to get done! :)
Today I have to finish my taxes, I have my appointment at 1! EEEK!
After I get home from that the girls are supposed to have swim lessons, if they aren't still hacking like crazy still. Then I get to make dinner for everyone, clean up after everyone and try to not be angry about it. Then I have to keep working on packing, making several phone calls.
Tomorrow I will take a load up to the cabin and get a PO Box and go by the school. I wish I knew someone to borrow a trailer from for the week, that would make my trips alot better, but oh well. I'll take the small loads if that is what I have to do to get moved!
I have so much I want to write about, but I'll have to do it later, I have too much to get done! :)
Friday, March 02, 2007
Friday Friday Friday
The end of the week, but it's also the day that I end up the busiest, because of all of the things that I've procrastinated doing - now they have to be done in one day. Like the taxes, I'm almost done, but the numbers astound me, horrify me would be more accurate. It makes me feel so foolish to have thought it was actually going to work. UGH.
I think we may start some moving this weekend, there is so much here that we really don't need day to day that we could really start getting it out of here. I'm getting to that point where I just want to get it over with. I feel so chaotic inside when things are up in the air like this. I just want to get settled and be DONE with it all!
Well here I am blogging (procrastinating) instead of finishing my taxes! lol
I suppose I had better be off to work! Hope everyone has a great day today!
I think we may start some moving this weekend, there is so much here that we really don't need day to day that we could really start getting it out of here. I'm getting to that point where I just want to get it over with. I feel so chaotic inside when things are up in the air like this. I just want to get settled and be DONE with it all!
Well here I am blogging (procrastinating) instead of finishing my taxes! lol
I suppose I had better be off to work! Hope everyone has a great day today!
Monday, February 26, 2007
Monday Sweetness
I love Mondays. Everyone is GONE from my house by 8am and it's so NICE to have the house back, it's quiet, no ones looking at my dishes pile and smirking because I'm on the computer instead of at the sink. I can sit and write my blog while listening to "my music" that no one else in the house (cept for the kids) likes! So, I'm listening to Carrie Underwood... CUZ I CAN! lol
We went up to the cabin Saturday and Adrian loved it like I did, after pointing out every little flaw that he could, and we put a deposit down on it. We're so excited. We'll be saving at least $250 a month, and that means we can use that to pay down debt and hopefully be in a position to buy at this time next year.
We'll have the whole month of March to move, but with 2 weekends already taken up it should be interesting... ugh. Adrian's only home on the weekends, so that leaves this coming weekend, and the last one of the month, which sucks because that's Spring Break, and I was planning a trip for myself to go visit friends from Roseburg to Portland. Ah well, I suppose I can wait until the Summer.
I'll be making phone calls to find out if there is anything other than dial-up available out there (not looking good) and to see if I can still get my DirecTV (doubtful also). There is cable, so there is hope. hehe - So today I've got those phone calls to make and the taxes to finish up (yes, STILL). Oriana sleeps in late on Mondays, worn out from all of the playing with all of the sisters and other kids that were here all weekend (6 girls all weekend long). I should do myself a favor and go back to sleep, but I enjoy this quiet time too much. :)
Once we get moved we can start working on plans for our big camping trip this summer, and planning our wedding. I'm excited!
Hmmm... what else to write about... I've got to figure out a way to keep me busy at home but also make money. I wish that I had some talent that would keep income rolling in. I'd love to be able to make/sell things online. I'll figure something out!
I don't think I included this picture in the pictures of the cabin, so I leave you with it today - and I'll smile everytime I look at it.
Isn't it cool?
We went up to the cabin Saturday and Adrian loved it like I did, after pointing out every little flaw that he could, and we put a deposit down on it. We're so excited. We'll be saving at least $250 a month, and that means we can use that to pay down debt and hopefully be in a position to buy at this time next year.
We'll have the whole month of March to move, but with 2 weekends already taken up it should be interesting... ugh. Adrian's only home on the weekends, so that leaves this coming weekend, and the last one of the month, which sucks because that's Spring Break, and I was planning a trip for myself to go visit friends from Roseburg to Portland. Ah well, I suppose I can wait until the Summer.
I'll be making phone calls to find out if there is anything other than dial-up available out there (not looking good) and to see if I can still get my DirecTV (doubtful also). There is cable, so there is hope. hehe - So today I've got those phone calls to make and the taxes to finish up (yes, STILL). Oriana sleeps in late on Mondays, worn out from all of the playing with all of the sisters and other kids that were here all weekend (6 girls all weekend long). I should do myself a favor and go back to sleep, but I enjoy this quiet time too much. :)
Once we get moved we can start working on plans for our big camping trip this summer, and planning our wedding. I'm excited!
Hmmm... what else to write about... I've got to figure out a way to keep me busy at home but also make money. I wish that I had some talent that would keep income rolling in. I'd love to be able to make/sell things online. I'll figure something out!
I don't think I included this picture in the pictures of the cabin, so I leave you with it today - and I'll smile everytime I look at it.
Isn't it cool?
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
I know, I said we were done looking for a while
But I found a cabin in the woods for rent, in the area that I would like to eventually buy in, so it's perfect in that way. It's FUNKY, totally unique and kind of quirky - my kind of cabin. :) Well, except that in my kind of cabin there would not be an indoor sauna but instead a outdoor hot tub, and I would get a ginormous antique claw foot tub. In this cabin there is a sauna, but no bath tub to be found. There is a shower in the sauna, and in the main bathroom, but no bath tub? There are lots of things to concider.
A huge factor in this is that I now have a roomate whom I can't just leave hanging and she can't afford my rent here on her own, and doesn't know anyone to have move in for a roomate. :(
I feel like I have a responsibility to her and I told her that we'd be looking for a place in May/June, not a week after she moved in. It's unfair to her to move. But I have to think about my family too - I will have to figure out how to make it right if we do decide to move....
The cabin is great, I love it. It's so unique, so cool that it feels like me. And talk about back to basics... check this out... it has an antique wood cook stove - that's in working order. It's those lovely colors of cream and light blue. It's gorgeous. It has style and grace AND it's functional? I mean I don't know if I'd really use it, but it's SO cool that it actually works! I suppose I'd use it on Turkey Day, when the regular old electric stove is full and I need an extra place to warm sides or bake bread.
The property the cabin lies on is not in such good shape. It's got lots of random things laying around that are sort of scarey when I think about my girls running around out there, or even the dog. There is shattered bits of glass around each of the really old beat up junker cars that are spread out on the land. There's probably 6-8 of the old junkers, some of those are pretty creepy too. A friend tells me that rattlesnakes like to hide in that kind of atmosphere. eek!
The land is rough, it's very rocky, little to enormous, just rocks everywhere. There is no garden space. There is space to plant flowers outside of the HUGE wall of windows (a LOT of windows, ahhh) in what looks like a big planter box that runs the length of the wall of windows... there's probably a name for it that I'm not aware of. I could do an above ground garden, it'll just take a little more work in the short run...
Well I must put an end to my chatterboxing and daydreaming. I hardly slept a wink last night and I have GOT to get some sleep! Oh, and I need to catch up on my drama (soap!) so I see a corner of a couch with a velvety soft blanky that is just calling my name...
I leave you with a few pictures of the cabin and grounds... feel free to give me your input!
The property - I spy 3 cars (or what used to be cars)
The beautiful and so unique handrail
The kitchen looking outside - my car - and the ancient snow plow thingy in the driveway.
And the kitchen with that gorgeous stove... and a common area over by the window.
A huge factor in this is that I now have a roomate whom I can't just leave hanging and she can't afford my rent here on her own, and doesn't know anyone to have move in for a roomate. :(
I feel like I have a responsibility to her and I told her that we'd be looking for a place in May/June, not a week after she moved in. It's unfair to her to move. But I have to think about my family too - I will have to figure out how to make it right if we do decide to move....
The cabin is great, I love it. It's so unique, so cool that it feels like me. And talk about back to basics... check this out... it has an antique wood cook stove - that's in working order. It's those lovely colors of cream and light blue. It's gorgeous. It has style and grace AND it's functional? I mean I don't know if I'd really use it, but it's SO cool that it actually works! I suppose I'd use it on Turkey Day, when the regular old electric stove is full and I need an extra place to warm sides or bake bread.
The property the cabin lies on is not in such good shape. It's got lots of random things laying around that are sort of scarey when I think about my girls running around out there, or even the dog. There is shattered bits of glass around each of the really old beat up junker cars that are spread out on the land. There's probably 6-8 of the old junkers, some of those are pretty creepy too. A friend tells me that rattlesnakes like to hide in that kind of atmosphere. eek!
The land is rough, it's very rocky, little to enormous, just rocks everywhere. There is no garden space. There is space to plant flowers outside of the HUGE wall of windows (a LOT of windows, ahhh) in what looks like a big planter box that runs the length of the wall of windows... there's probably a name for it that I'm not aware of. I could do an above ground garden, it'll just take a little more work in the short run...
Well I must put an end to my chatterboxing and daydreaming. I hardly slept a wink last night and I have GOT to get some sleep! Oh, and I need to catch up on my drama (soap!) so I see a corner of a couch with a velvety soft blanky that is just calling my name...
I leave you with a few pictures of the cabin and grounds... feel free to give me your input!
The property - I spy 3 cars (or what used to be cars)
The beautiful and so unique handrail
The kitchen looking outside - my car - and the ancient snow plow thingy in the driveway.
And the kitchen with that gorgeous stove... and a common area over by the window.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Oatmeal, again?
I'm tired of oatmeal. I'm tired of trying to eat healthy. I'm BORED to death of it. I'm LAZY. I don't WANT to work to figure out what to eat that is healthy. I don't want to try to make good and healthy decisions every day. But, I WANT to be fit, not skinny really, but fit. You know, where the fat on your back doesn't jiggle when you go up or down stairs?! Ugh. It's tiring and boring and it's work. It's supposed to be worth it. But, I've been doing weight watchers for almost 7 weeks now, paid nearly $100 if not more and I've lost 3 pounds in total. 3 lousy pounds. I'm pretty sure I could do that by going to the bathroom. But I eat my damned oatmeal and I try, I really try to stay away from foods that are not healthy, but it sucks ass and I'm not going to stop bitching until I drop at least 10 pounds! There's a thought, what if bitching were like an excercise... THAT would be cool!
I have roomates! Interesting stuff huh? My friend and her daughter moved in with us last week and it's so strange to have a friend over at night to watch American Idol with me.... so cool!
We aren't moving until May or June (did I say that already?) Hopefully we will be able to find the perfect place by then, I'm sick of moving, I'm sick of worrying about the crap that happens to someone elses house when I live in it, I want my own!
I want big trees surrounding my house, I want dogs (yeah, more than one!), I want to take in stray animals and give them a home, I want a garden, I want snow on the ground in the winter, I want to plant flowers and watch them bloom in the spring, I want a garden in the summer, I want fruit trees and berry bushes, I want horses and I want room to groove, I want neighbors - but not close enough to hear my music, but close enough to notice if something is wrong. That's all, that is all I want. That's not too much is it? I'm not asking for fame and fortune or to have my name known, or to have a brand named after me. I just want peace in my home, and around it. I want my children to feel comfortable running in the woods around the house, with the dogs by their side, I want to curl up by the wood stove in a comfy chair with a blanket, a cat on my lap, a book in one hand and a cup of tea in the other.
Ok, now you all know what I daydream of daily. I do mean daily. lol
I have to find a way to get there!
I have roomates! Interesting stuff huh? My friend and her daughter moved in with us last week and it's so strange to have a friend over at night to watch American Idol with me.... so cool!
We aren't moving until May or June (did I say that already?) Hopefully we will be able to find the perfect place by then, I'm sick of moving, I'm sick of worrying about the crap that happens to someone elses house when I live in it, I want my own!
I want big trees surrounding my house, I want dogs (yeah, more than one!), I want to take in stray animals and give them a home, I want a garden, I want snow on the ground in the winter, I want to plant flowers and watch them bloom in the spring, I want a garden in the summer, I want fruit trees and berry bushes, I want horses and I want room to groove, I want neighbors - but not close enough to hear my music, but close enough to notice if something is wrong. That's all, that is all I want. That's not too much is it? I'm not asking for fame and fortune or to have my name known, or to have a brand named after me. I just want peace in my home, and around it. I want my children to feel comfortable running in the woods around the house, with the dogs by their side, I want to curl up by the wood stove in a comfy chair with a blanket, a cat on my lap, a book in one hand and a cup of tea in the other.
Ok, now you all know what I daydream of daily. I do mean daily. lol
I have to find a way to get there!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Possibilities
Ok, so there are just too many possibilities of where to live and what to do.
We have decided though that we will take the next month to figure out what area we are going to move to, and then once Spring hits we can really start looking for our "landing place" then. More rentals open up in the Spring/Summer anyway. So for now we are working on decluttering, simplifying and stupid taxes.. yippy.
Well and I will be starting up something business wise for myself by the end of this month.
I don't have much else to say right now and I have got to get started cleaning up this house as we will have much company soon! :)
We have decided though that we will take the next month to figure out what area we are going to move to, and then once Spring hits we can really start looking for our "landing place" then. More rentals open up in the Spring/Summer anyway. So for now we are working on decluttering, simplifying and stupid taxes.. yippy.
Well and I will be starting up something business wise for myself by the end of this month.
I don't have much else to say right now and I have got to get started cleaning up this house as we will have much company soon! :)
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Little Last Minute Road Trip - Does a body good!
Well I am typing this from a Hotel room in Sun Valley. It's beautiful, quiet, quaint and charming here. There is just a little snow on the ground and there is a chill in the air! Ophelia and Oriana are cozied up in the big King bed and I'm being lazy on the couch with my papers and my house search tools open on the laptop. Yes, we are searching for a home. We finally made a decision on this and I will share it with you all once I have it all figured out completey. :)
Today I've got houses lined up to look at and the drive home to complete. I have a ton of paperwork to sort through and lots and lots of phone calls to make when I get home!
Oh! A really great friend from 9th grade found me on Myspace yesterday. I am so excited to get to know her again! Kara I missed you! I have a ton of memories from that time and I have always missed her. I haven't seen her since I was, oh - 15? Whoa, I just realized that means it's been 15 years. God I'm old. I've tried to find her several times over the years, but never succeeded! She said she's tried to find me for years too... which is funny because I always asumed with a name like mine (that's never changed due to marriage either) it'd be easy to find me, I guess this is not the case though. lol
Well it's about time for me to get cleaned up and walk the kids down to the nearest coffee shop for some hot cocoa! mmmmm - crap I have to be good though. I had a really bad day yesterday and splurged on a sweet coffee drink AND fast food... ugh. I probably gained 5 pounds! lol
I hope everyone has a great day!
Today I've got houses lined up to look at and the drive home to complete. I have a ton of paperwork to sort through and lots and lots of phone calls to make when I get home!
Oh! A really great friend from 9th grade found me on Myspace yesterday. I am so excited to get to know her again! Kara I missed you! I have a ton of memories from that time and I have always missed her. I haven't seen her since I was, oh - 15? Whoa, I just realized that means it's been 15 years. God I'm old. I've tried to find her several times over the years, but never succeeded! She said she's tried to find me for years too... which is funny because I always asumed with a name like mine (that's never changed due to marriage either) it'd be easy to find me, I guess this is not the case though. lol
Well it's about time for me to get cleaned up and walk the kids down to the nearest coffee shop for some hot cocoa! mmmmm - crap I have to be good though. I had a really bad day yesterday and splurged on a sweet coffee drink AND fast food... ugh. I probably gained 5 pounds! lol
I hope everyone has a great day!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Tiny Piece of Me
My dad took me fishing off of that pier.
I went to those highschool football games.
I walked those streets.
I took my brother on that half-pipe ~ in a shopping cart!
Man I miss it there. I came upon this video by chance, I couldn't believe my eyes, it's such a SMALL town! I miss it so much, I cried all the way through the video, but mostly because I miss my dad so much lately and I couldn't believe I got to look at that pier.
Monday, February 05, 2007
laptop takes a crap
yay. I'm so excited. My laptop decided to die rather than to try to compete with the brand new Gateway laptop/notebook that Adrian just got from work. The minute he brought it with him to sit next to me (mine was on my lap), mine started acting quirky. Then about 15 minutes later I had to reset it, so guess what - it didn't even come back on!!! :(
So I probably won't be online as much, it's much harder to find the time to dedicate to just the puter. Usually I'm multi-tasking somehow. If I have the puter on my lap I can watch tv, get 2 lazy things done at once. lol. But if I have to go upstairs and be stuck in the little office with just the computer, then I feel I'm even lazier.
Maybe I'll finally get my taxes done?
Well I guess we shall see. That is the thing that I'm most worried about this week. Taxes, and finding a new home, a smaller and easier to care for home!
So I probably won't be online as much, it's much harder to find the time to dedicate to just the puter. Usually I'm multi-tasking somehow. If I have the puter on my lap I can watch tv, get 2 lazy things done at once. lol. But if I have to go upstairs and be stuck in the little office with just the computer, then I feel I'm even lazier.
Maybe I'll finally get my taxes done?
Well I guess we shall see. That is the thing that I'm most worried about this week. Taxes, and finding a new home, a smaller and easier to care for home!
Friday, January 19, 2007
Since I had a BUNCH of crap come up this week, I ended up running a ton of errands and spending a LOT of time on the phone - just dealing with all kinds of different issues, so I didn't get everything done, but I got a good start on a lot of it! I'm proud that I got as far as I did, I was soooo busy all week!
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom GOOD START ON IT
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes STARTED ON IT
~ To not put off the bills DONE
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service DONE
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years) WROTE 3 PAGES
~ To seek counceling service for debt management WORKING ON THAT
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending WORKING ON THAT
~ To read and work in my workbook BEEN DOING THAT
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away DONE
I did so much extra stuff that wasn't on this list! I taught myself to knit, and I'm halfway through my first washcloth. lol
Adrian got his first paycheck today and I set up a lot of bills for automatic withdrawal since we will actually be able to afford it now! WOHOOOOOOOOOO for a good paying job! He's so proud, excited and practically giddy! He's worked something like 55 hours this week and he's not even done, 20 hours of overtime a week is pretty awesome. I just hope he's not going to burn out and crash! Well off to get ready for a party tonight! :)
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom GOOD START ON IT
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes STARTED ON IT
~ To not put off the bills DONE
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service DONE
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years) WROTE 3 PAGES
~ To seek counceling service for debt management WORKING ON THAT
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending WORKING ON THAT
~ To read and work in my workbook BEEN DOING THAT
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away DONE
I did so much extra stuff that wasn't on this list! I taught myself to knit, and I'm halfway through my first washcloth. lol
Adrian got his first paycheck today and I set up a lot of bills for automatic withdrawal since we will actually be able to afford it now! WOHOOOOOOOOOO for a good paying job! He's so proud, excited and practically giddy! He's worked something like 55 hours this week and he's not even done, 20 hours of overtime a week is pretty awesome. I just hope he's not going to burn out and crash! Well off to get ready for a party tonight! :)
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Update on my goal list
Today's only Tuesday and I would like to have them done by Friday so I have plenty of time.
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom Uh, haven't started, eek
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes haven't started that either!
~ To not put off the bills DONE
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service DONE
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years) TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THAT!
~ To seek counceling service for debt management WORKING ON THAT
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending WORKING ON THAT
~ To read and work in my workbook BEEN DOING THAT
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away LAUNDRY IS DONE & FOLDED, NOT PUT AWAY YET
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom Uh, haven't started, eek
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes haven't started that either!
~ To not put off the bills DONE
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service DONE
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years) TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THAT!
~ To seek counceling service for debt management WORKING ON THAT
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending WORKING ON THAT
~ To read and work in my workbook BEEN DOING THAT
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away LAUNDRY IS DONE & FOLDED, NOT PUT AWAY YET
A little late
But just as important- I think we all should watch, listen or read this every year at the very least. We need to remember this, we need to be more like he thought we should be. Imagine if we were?
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Goals
Ok, I'm attempting to do sort of an inside out make over for myself, body and mind basically, this year and here is one thing I'm starting - Goals, mini goals, big goals, ultimate goals and weekly goals.
So here I start - because I am so incredibly jealous of those organized mama's who seem to have it all together. I'm constantly reading a couple of different blogs about homemaking and homesteading, they inspire me quite a bit I must say. I'll be posting the links to these wonderful blogs (if you enjoy reading other peoples meal plans and laundry habits - they are especially entertaining. lol - I must be a mom!) in the very near future. :-)
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes
~ To not put off the bills
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years)
~ To seek counceling service for debt management
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending
~ To read and work in my workbook
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away
I know, I'm crazy right? It is a lot, but I am not working, I'm home all of the time and really - why not? What else do I have to do? Search for good TV - no, not an option. I need to get off my ass and get down to working on stuff that makes a difference in my life, TV and movies certainly do not.
Well I had better get off of the puter and get started working! :) Have a great day everyone!
So here I start - because I am so incredibly jealous of those organized mama's who seem to have it all together. I'm constantly reading a couple of different blogs about homemaking and homesteading, they inspire me quite a bit I must say. I'll be posting the links to these wonderful blogs (if you enjoy reading other peoples meal plans and laundry habits - they are especially entertaining. lol - I must be a mom!) in the very near future. :-)
This weeks goals ~
~ To clean, organize and declutter my bedroom
~ To start organizing my reciepts for taxes
~ To not put off the bills
~ To take that a step further and make some much needed phone calls about my bills - I will be downgrading our DirecTV, cell service and phone service
~ To write at least 1 page a day (I'm writing a story for the first time in years)
~ To seek counceling service for debt management
~ To organize file folders for the household bills and spending
~ To read and work in my workbook
~ To keep up on the housework and keep laundry done and put away
I know, I'm crazy right? It is a lot, but I am not working, I'm home all of the time and really - why not? What else do I have to do? Search for good TV - no, not an option. I need to get off my ass and get down to working on stuff that makes a difference in my life, TV and movies certainly do not.
Well I had better get off of the puter and get started working! :) Have a great day everyone!
Monday, January 08, 2007
A New Creation
This new year seems to have brought so much change already.
I'm trying to make some personal changes and also Adrian's been making some changes as well. The new job he has is keeping him incredibly busy and he seems to be just loving it. I'm not so excited about it, but I can't help but feel excited for him. He feels like he's working for a company that values him, and that has been HUGE for him. I'm thrilled that I'm finally with a driven, intelligent, motivated man. I'm certainly NOT used to that. The significant relationships in my life have been with men who were good fathers, but not motivated or driven enough to get out of the comfort zone and make the steps toward a better life. Adrian is willing to risk it.
I have started a weight loss program and I'm doing pretty good. I was actually honest on my food tracker. lol. I've got two close friends actually doing the same program with me and that is so helpful to know I can call one of them with quesions or just to whine! lol
We rearranged our living room on Adrians day off. Well we actually rearranged 3 rooms - Abbi and Alex were sharing a room, I've separated them and put Alex in the "playroom" downstairs because she has shown so much responsibility with keeping her room clean. So we had to re-do the playroom, which meant moving it all out (that sucks!) and moving a lot of it into the living room. So behind our "living room" area (behind the couches) we have made a "family play space" with the big square coffee table and lots of board games and toys. I'm glad that they will be right there when playing and I will have more control over how much TV they suck in every day!
We have been going to church, we went to church on Wednesday night and the girls and I ate dinner there. It was cheap and good and made my night a lot simpler! Then the girls went off to choir, then they went to their individual kids groups. I went off to the kitchen with the ladies clean up from the "Super Supper". I then went to the bible study. Adrian and I took the girls back Sunday for the service and Sunday School for the girls.
Well I think that's all for now folks! I'll try to start blogging more regularly since my readers seem to have dropped off... I think they tend to do that when I don't post regularly!
I'm trying to make some personal changes and also Adrian's been making some changes as well. The new job he has is keeping him incredibly busy and he seems to be just loving it. I'm not so excited about it, but I can't help but feel excited for him. He feels like he's working for a company that values him, and that has been HUGE for him. I'm thrilled that I'm finally with a driven, intelligent, motivated man. I'm certainly NOT used to that. The significant relationships in my life have been with men who were good fathers, but not motivated or driven enough to get out of the comfort zone and make the steps toward a better life. Adrian is willing to risk it.
I have started a weight loss program and I'm doing pretty good. I was actually honest on my food tracker. lol. I've got two close friends actually doing the same program with me and that is so helpful to know I can call one of them with quesions or just to whine! lol
We rearranged our living room on Adrians day off. Well we actually rearranged 3 rooms - Abbi and Alex were sharing a room, I've separated them and put Alex in the "playroom" downstairs because she has shown so much responsibility with keeping her room clean. So we had to re-do the playroom, which meant moving it all out (that sucks!) and moving a lot of it into the living room. So behind our "living room" area (behind the couches) we have made a "family play space" with the big square coffee table and lots of board games and toys. I'm glad that they will be right there when playing and I will have more control over how much TV they suck in every day!
We have been going to church, we went to church on Wednesday night and the girls and I ate dinner there. It was cheap and good and made my night a lot simpler! Then the girls went off to choir, then they went to their individual kids groups. I went off to the kitchen with the ladies clean up from the "Super Supper". I then went to the bible study. Adrian and I took the girls back Sunday for the service and Sunday School for the girls.
Well I think that's all for now folks! I'll try to start blogging more regularly since my readers seem to have dropped off... I think they tend to do that when I don't post regularly!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
How to start off a new year.
I've been a bad blogger. I know. It's been rough getting through the holiday's. I have so much to do I'm overwhelmed (seems like a theme in my life). I've got some resolutions I'm working on. I never make resolutions because I never follow through. We'll see how that works out this time.
Some of the things I'm working on -
~Positivity
~Treating myself & everyone around me better
~Being a better friend
~Being a better mother
~Being a better spouce
~Loving myself
~Healing & moving on
I need to change, this last year I have learned a lot and hurt a lot. I really really need to heal. I've not treated myself (especially my body, but also my mind)very well and I haven't treated the people around me as I should be.
Why is it that we treat our "acquaintances" and people we don't "love" - so much better than those we love the most? I hate this. I heard that saying probably close to a year ago and I have taken notice to how MUCH it has rang true.
If you haven't heard that or paid attention to that - I suggest you do. If you think about the way that you speak to a stranger, and the way you speak to your husband/wife/kids/parents. For a lot of people, it's just natural, we don't even think about it. My challenge is to think about it, all day - every day, and pay attention to how I'm treating my loved ones. Because they matter more than a stranger does when it comes to people in my heart.
Some of the things I'm working on -
~Positivity
~Treating myself & everyone around me better
~Being a better friend
~Being a better mother
~Being a better spouce
~Loving myself
~Healing & moving on
I need to change, this last year I have learned a lot and hurt a lot. I really really need to heal. I've not treated myself (especially my body, but also my mind)very well and I haven't treated the people around me as I should be.
Why is it that we treat our "acquaintances" and people we don't "love" - so much better than those we love the most? I hate this. I heard that saying probably close to a year ago and I have taken notice to how MUCH it has rang true.
If you haven't heard that or paid attention to that - I suggest you do. If you think about the way that you speak to a stranger, and the way you speak to your husband/wife/kids/parents. For a lot of people, it's just natural, we don't even think about it. My challenge is to think about it, all day - every day, and pay attention to how I'm treating my loved ones. Because they matter more than a stranger does when it comes to people in my heart.
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